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14 years ago
Christmas was...meh. Wasn't fantastic but I don't care much for the holiday anyway. I spent it at my Aunt's house and just kinda derped around, drawing with my niece and listening to music. I got a large box of Ceylon tea, some art stuff, 1600 microsoft points for xBox, and some ponies. (Cupcakes and talking pinklestia.) What did you guys do/get?
The New Year is coming soon! This one better be better than this year, 'cause this year sucked...
...What am I forgetting? OH! Resolutions. Right. Hm...I'll do those later! Not sure what I wanna accomplish other than losin' some weight (we all know these resolutions go...) and graduating.
In other news...
I learned a few things about myself since Christmas and I'm looking for some advice or information.
I discovered recently that I have very deep feelings for someone. I love someone. This someone is in fact female. Which is a slightly new feeling to me, but I'm not at all bothered by it!
I had a small series of problems with one solution. That solution is: Do nothing. There's nothing I CAN do and I've accepted it.
The feelings are mutual. However...She's a Jehovah's Witness. She's in a relationship that she's not supposed to be in anyway, due to her religion's restrictions on marriage and relationships. As you know, I'm an atheist so obviously there's a problem from the start. Then we have the fact that many religions do not encourage homosexuality, even forbid it entirely. So it was a problem, but we talked about it and we've agreed to simply stay good friends and just continue the way we were. Which I'm totally happy about! So why am I all spazzy about this?
Well...I learned that it is possible for me to have emotional feelings for the same sex. I can love a girl, she just...has to be really special...
"So, Tox, what's that question you had?"
Well...I've known this for a very long time, but I don't know if there's a word for it:
When I have emotional, lovey-dovey feelings for someone...I cannot, no matter what, look at them sexually. I see them, their soul, who they are. Not their body. I don't care what they look like, and my brain basically says "Nope! Romance and sexual romance are different! Gtfo, genitals!" Which I'm okay with! But, is there a word for this? So I know how to explain it better? So, if anyone knows, please tell me!
/END EMOTIONAL AND PERSONAL LIFE
IN OTHER NEWS I'm drawing again so I will likely have some artshit up eventually. I've also taken on a few projects...I'm making scalemate plushies soon. :3
So what's up with you dorkasses?
The New Year is coming soon! This one better be better than this year, 'cause this year sucked...
...What am I forgetting? OH! Resolutions. Right. Hm...I'll do those later! Not sure what I wanna accomplish other than losin' some weight (we all know these resolutions go...) and graduating.
In other news...
I learned a few things about myself since Christmas and I'm looking for some advice or information.
I discovered recently that I have very deep feelings for someone. I love someone. This someone is in fact female. Which is a slightly new feeling to me, but I'm not at all bothered by it!
I had a small series of problems with one solution. That solution is: Do nothing. There's nothing I CAN do and I've accepted it.
The feelings are mutual. However...She's a Jehovah's Witness. She's in a relationship that she's not supposed to be in anyway, due to her religion's restrictions on marriage and relationships. As you know, I'm an atheist so obviously there's a problem from the start. Then we have the fact that many religions do not encourage homosexuality, even forbid it entirely. So it was a problem, but we talked about it and we've agreed to simply stay good friends and just continue the way we were. Which I'm totally happy about! So why am I all spazzy about this?
Well...I learned that it is possible for me to have emotional feelings for the same sex. I can love a girl, she just...has to be really special...
"So, Tox, what's that question you had?"
Well...I've known this for a very long time, but I don't know if there's a word for it:
When I have emotional, lovey-dovey feelings for someone...I cannot, no matter what, look at them sexually. I see them, their soul, who they are. Not their body. I don't care what they look like, and my brain basically says "Nope! Romance and sexual romance are different! Gtfo, genitals!" Which I'm okay with! But, is there a word for this? So I know how to explain it better? So, if anyone knows, please tell me!
/END EMOTIONAL AND PERSONAL LIFE
IN OTHER NEWS I'm drawing again so I will likely have some artshit up eventually. I've also taken on a few projects...I'm making scalemate plushies soon. :3
So what's up with you dorkasses?
