Too much thinking. Wondering if I should leave my boyfriend. He's been... Stressing me out a lot lately. We've been dating for three years, three and a half? Can't quite remember.. But I feel so damn tired. Sick of people a lot of the time, their drama, the rules of conversation, what I can and can't do around different people I talk to. I feel lonely yet smothered all in the same instance. I can't make out these feelings.. Art will be coming soon, there's more to life than drawing- I need to know there are other things in life that can make me happy. I need to know that.. I'm happy, just for me. I want to know I can be happy on my own. Maybe one day I'll stop depending on people so that I can feel worth something. Or maybe one day I'll finally find that one friend I've been looking for.. I'm still searching. I've met a lot of people but.. It doesn't feel like it's enough, they've all come and gone. Is it wrong to need others around for me to be happy?

Thinking too much again.. Not thinking enough, all at the same time. Where to go from here? I've seem to have lost my map.