Why do I let it bother me so
When It should be something I just let go

Angry words were said
As it all remains in my head

Maybe I’m not able to let it go
As I wasn’t able to deal the final blow

It’s like having my hands tied behind my back
Not being able to fight back

Perhaps I just think too much
And I let it turn my thoughts to mush

Jealousy has to be the worst
And it makes me feel as my heart may burst

But I’m confused to why I feel this way
As there were reasons to why we went our separate ways

Maybe it’s because they’re able to be free
And able to do things I can’t because I’m me

I wanted to go to bars and clubs with a crew
And do things like get drunk and screw

I guess it’s just not in my Nature to do that
Though I guess I’m afraid of being laughed at

Maybe I’m jealous of them being able to enjoy their fun side
While I sit alone in my room and hide

I felt that I’ve wasted my youth
Spending nights in my room the size of a phonebooth

I feel that I’m getting past my prime
And have just wasted a lot of my time

Maybe I’m just being too hard on myself
And not letting out my inner true self

Confidence can be such an intresting thing
Especialy when you feel like yours is in the bin

But the fun thing is that I feel this will be my Year
And I won’t even need to drink any beer!

And I will try new exciting things
Like go to Karaoke and Sing

Hopefully get to go to new places
And get to meet many new faces

So Screw those bad times
And replace them with lots of good times

Soon I will be the person who I want to be
And I’ll open up to the around me

So any bad comments words or comments won’t bring me down
I’ll just make them all look like Clowns