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Regarding the Fate of Miss Icee
13 years ago
As some of you may have noticed, I have recently broken two of my former policies. The first being no porn of Icee to be posted anywhere and the second being no sexual/romantic interactions with characters other than those belonging to my fiance, Hakuga. Because these rules have been broken, I have decided now is the time to discuss the fate of Miss Icee. Please bear with me as this might be a bit long.
Lately I have felt very much that Icee has evolved beyond what anyone ever anticipated of her upon her creation. It was expected of her, when she was brought about, to be representative of particular personality traits of myself, to be my "fursona" or the character representing how I wished to be portrayed in this fandom, and to be the mate for my fiance's character Hakuga. Part of her evolution into what she is today was a conscious decision and part of it happened without anyone anticipating the route it would take.
Over the course of the year and a half that she has existed as a character, her character has been broken many times to suit a commission I wanted or a mood I desired. Where the original Icee was intended to be sour, bitter, and unfriendly, many times she has been portrayed as a happy go lucky, friendly, cute character. And of course, as everyone tends to prefer a happy camper, she was often preferred to be portrayed as cute and happy. Less and less was shown of the personality I intended for her. She started to evolve slowly over time to not only please my own need to see her in situations that might be considered abnormal for her but also to fit situations that fans of my character expected to see her in. I consider this the fault of no one but myself for allowing her to evolve in this fashion.
The change was gradual and I really didn't anticipate that she would ever evolve into a character that I felt I had little control over. She has gained her own personality and presence vastly different than what I had ever anticipated she would have. It slowly dawned on me that Miss Icee was no longer a character I felt represented me or who I wanted to portray myself as in this fandom. Hakuga also very much felt disconnected to her and found himself dismissing her as the character belonging to his own. This was disappointing for both of us... to feel like she was no longer what we had wanted her to be. I thought about selling her. I thought about retiring her and never having her drawn again... and both of these thoughts made me incredibly sad. I knew they would make fans of Icee sad as well. I couldn't honestly bear with the idea of parting with a character so loved by many... one who used to represent a part of me.
Instead I have decided to let her continue to be exactly who she is trying to be... to let her continue on this path that she almost seems to be creating for herself through how her fans envision her and how many artists portray her. She will be sexy. She will be cute. She will be loved. I have decided to let my personal attachments to her go (thus the ability to portray her in adult situations and with characters other than those belonging to my fiance) and continue ownership over her as a mere character and not as a "fursona" that represents who I wish to be viewed as.
There will still be art of Icee and she will still very much be my character. She won't ever disappear. If anything, she will thrive now that I have emotionally let go of her.
In her place, a new character will be made to represent who I wish to be portrayed as in the fandom, as a counterpart to my real self. She will share the same personality... the same history as me... There will only be two ways in which this new character and I will differ. By name and by appearance. I will not portray her in situations other than those I would portray to the public of myself. This means no lingerie pictures... no suggestive poses... no porn... no other characters other than Hakuga's. Those will be Icee's realm. I will not be moving accounts or making another account... I will still be here and will still go by Icee however I ask that you keep in mind that the character Icee is no longer anything but a character. The new design for "Andi" (as I shall call her) will, yes, be a character by principle... but I ask that you keep in mind that she is not a character at all to me so much as an anthropomorphic representation of my true self with a name I prefer to my own. I promise I will post her as soon as I have her designed in a fashion that I feel I can be happy with as a representation of me.
I hope this decision does not disappoint or upset any of my watchers and I hope that you can come to love Andi as much as many of you love Icee. I know many of you are fond of Icee and respected that she once stood for monogamy. I hope that you will all be supportive in my decision to let her exist as a character, to do things she hasn't previously done, to be who many have wished her to be and more. I hope that you can see this new character of mine as a better representation of me as a real human being on the other side of the computer screen, to see that she stands for all of the ideals I once held with Icee. I hope that you can all be happy, as I am, with the fate of Miss Icee and with the beginning of the life of Miss Andi.
<3
Lately I have felt very much that Icee has evolved beyond what anyone ever anticipated of her upon her creation. It was expected of her, when she was brought about, to be representative of particular personality traits of myself, to be my "fursona" or the character representing how I wished to be portrayed in this fandom, and to be the mate for my fiance's character Hakuga. Part of her evolution into what she is today was a conscious decision and part of it happened without anyone anticipating the route it would take.
Over the course of the year and a half that she has existed as a character, her character has been broken many times to suit a commission I wanted or a mood I desired. Where the original Icee was intended to be sour, bitter, and unfriendly, many times she has been portrayed as a happy go lucky, friendly, cute character. And of course, as everyone tends to prefer a happy camper, she was often preferred to be portrayed as cute and happy. Less and less was shown of the personality I intended for her. She started to evolve slowly over time to not only please my own need to see her in situations that might be considered abnormal for her but also to fit situations that fans of my character expected to see her in. I consider this the fault of no one but myself for allowing her to evolve in this fashion.
The change was gradual and I really didn't anticipate that she would ever evolve into a character that I felt I had little control over. She has gained her own personality and presence vastly different than what I had ever anticipated she would have. It slowly dawned on me that Miss Icee was no longer a character I felt represented me or who I wanted to portray myself as in this fandom. Hakuga also very much felt disconnected to her and found himself dismissing her as the character belonging to his own. This was disappointing for both of us... to feel like she was no longer what we had wanted her to be. I thought about selling her. I thought about retiring her and never having her drawn again... and both of these thoughts made me incredibly sad. I knew they would make fans of Icee sad as well. I couldn't honestly bear with the idea of parting with a character so loved by many... one who used to represent a part of me.
Instead I have decided to let her continue to be exactly who she is trying to be... to let her continue on this path that she almost seems to be creating for herself through how her fans envision her and how many artists portray her. She will be sexy. She will be cute. She will be loved. I have decided to let my personal attachments to her go (thus the ability to portray her in adult situations and with characters other than those belonging to my fiance) and continue ownership over her as a mere character and not as a "fursona" that represents who I wish to be viewed as.
There will still be art of Icee and she will still very much be my character. She won't ever disappear. If anything, she will thrive now that I have emotionally let go of her.
In her place, a new character will be made to represent who I wish to be portrayed as in the fandom, as a counterpart to my real self. She will share the same personality... the same history as me... There will only be two ways in which this new character and I will differ. By name and by appearance. I will not portray her in situations other than those I would portray to the public of myself. This means no lingerie pictures... no suggestive poses... no porn... no other characters other than Hakuga's. Those will be Icee's realm. I will not be moving accounts or making another account... I will still be here and will still go by Icee however I ask that you keep in mind that the character Icee is no longer anything but a character. The new design for "Andi" (as I shall call her) will, yes, be a character by principle... but I ask that you keep in mind that she is not a character at all to me so much as an anthropomorphic representation of my true self with a name I prefer to my own. I promise I will post her as soon as I have her designed in a fashion that I feel I can be happy with as a representation of me.
I hope this decision does not disappoint or upset any of my watchers and I hope that you can come to love Andi as much as many of you love Icee. I know many of you are fond of Icee and respected that she once stood for monogamy. I hope that you will all be supportive in my decision to let her exist as a character, to do things she hasn't previously done, to be who many have wished her to be and more. I hope that you can see this new character of mine as a better representation of me as a real human being on the other side of the computer screen, to see that she stands for all of the ideals I once held with Icee. I hope that you can all be happy, as I am, with the fate of Miss Icee and with the beginning of the life of Miss Andi.
<3
I'm looking forward to seeing Andi ^-^!
I support your decision Icee!