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17 years ago
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Dear blog/journal
I keep forgetting to write, but I keep getting busy. The internet keeps me busy, go figure.
Well people have always told me the internet isn't really anything more than a place for information to flow and information to be exchanged and nothing else. I don't think that's true anymore. It's a network where people can literally see and do anything that the internet allows them to. It's incredible at times.
And at times it can make me feel like a horrible piece of crap. Like this week when I was confronted with an individual I took under my arm as a "son". It was Rp yes, but I felt it was more than just rp. With my issues I have with family irl being adopted and having had a lackluster upbringing it felt like I was really a father and that I was really helping someone through life as a parental figure.
Though this week the son told me it was "just a game" and it was "just rp" and it didn't really matter and all I was was "just a friend". my feelings were hurt more than he can ever realize. I am how I am because that's how I developed and was made, I'm not going to be able to change. I feel bad about some things, but there's nothing I can really do.
I don't really know what else to say, other than I hope my next post is more chipper.
I keep forgetting to write, but I keep getting busy. The internet keeps me busy, go figure.
Well people have always told me the internet isn't really anything more than a place for information to flow and information to be exchanged and nothing else. I don't think that's true anymore. It's a network where people can literally see and do anything that the internet allows them to. It's incredible at times.
And at times it can make me feel like a horrible piece of crap. Like this week when I was confronted with an individual I took under my arm as a "son". It was Rp yes, but I felt it was more than just rp. With my issues I have with family irl being adopted and having had a lackluster upbringing it felt like I was really a father and that I was really helping someone through life as a parental figure.
Though this week the son told me it was "just a game" and it was "just rp" and it didn't really matter and all I was was "just a friend". my feelings were hurt more than he can ever realize. I am how I am because that's how I developed and was made, I'm not going to be able to change. I feel bad about some things, but there's nothing I can really do.
I don't really know what else to say, other than I hope my next post is more chipper.
