Lately I have been really stressed about everything really. I mean because of it I haven't really been eating much. I haven't been able to stay awake a lot (also because I have trouble sleeping...might have sleep apnea.) I haven't even been myself lately even.

I guess what I am trying to say is that life is really sucking. Not only did I fail my last semester of college, but I don't even know what I want to do for a career anymore. Everything has just been going down the tube since the winter semester I guess. I have a horrible job that I am not even getting a pay check for this week (get paid every friday) and what doesn't help is that I can't even get interviews for other places.

Ugh...I just want it to be over. I want everything figured out again... I don't even know who I am anymore... I wish they had a pill for that, or at least something to help cope with all the stress. I tried talking with people about it but all it does is get them worried or upset.

Why can't life be as it was? Where all you had to do was get a job anywhere and you were happy about it. Had loved ones that didn't bug you about jobs, a place of my own to live in (need the better job for that), a vehicle of my own again instead of wondering what I will be driving the next day.

I mean it is really taking its toll on my life. I haven't showered in a couple days, need to shave again, get a hair cut, and basically get a life.

For the past couple days I have been really contemplating on just having an FA and thats it. Meaning delete my so furry account, furriesextreme account, furrymate, facebook, myyearbook, and any other group I am apart of online.

Life just really sucks right now... I wish it could all just be over and all of it be like it was. Full of happiness...I guess thats what growing up is like...stress, stress, and more stress. Oh and did I say stress already?