One of my closest cousins is just a couple months younger than me found love and she is already married. My best friend Ashley just sent me a text saying that her and her bf are going to announce to her mom that they are engaged. I was also the best man for another friends wedding two falls ago.

What the hell am I doing with my life that everyone around me is finding love while I am just stuck here alone, miserable, and in the damn dark? I mean I do the best I can to well...be me, have gone on a couple dates, but afterwards I get nothing more than a hug and a text a few days later saying "Thank you for taking me out to dinner, but in case you were wondering...I am glad we are friends and nothing more because than that would be weird." Shit like that and it hurts, it really does hurt. After getting it so many times...I just don't really believe that I will find that one woman for me, start a family with a couple kids, and become a happy family. I honestly really can't believe it anymore and it really sucks.


Fuck this shit....