I don't normally make journals.
13 years ago
Now I've made two, and I have only one watcher at the moment, so Ryak, you better fucking read this.
I feel I owe an explanation. Kind of to you guys, after all, you're the people that put up with me. But also to myself. I dunno why, but it feels kinda like I'm letting go of a part of myself, and not in a bad way. It's like I've looked in a mirror for the first time since I was seventeen and seen who I am. What I've achieved. And to be honest, I kind of like it. Sure, I have my moments of madness, my fractured despairs, but that'll fade like the rest.
I'm sure some of you would quite happily testify to my hatred of humanity, my want to kill and maim and burn. This mindset that I had become so accustomed to, and, especially of late, it's dissipated. Don't get me wrong, the idea of a good burning still puts a fire in my belly, but no longer do I feel the way I did. I'm not as chaotic as I once was. I understand things now. The way we act, the way other people act. I appreciate humanity more. I LOVE humanity more.
I feel like I can spread my wings and reach out. My dreams are fully realised and well within my grasp, all I need to do is concentrate and close my claws. And to be honest, that's the easy part.
I have a name. I asked people for help, and I got, unsurprisingly, stupid replies ^,=,^
One stuck out in particular, thanks to Ryak, and people started to grab it and run away with it. Pegasus the Swift. It had a ring to it. HAS a ring to it. I laughed. It's a funny name, and the more I thought on it, the more I realised that the name doesn't matter. You're probably all just still gonna call me Jack anyway so, I thought... "Why the hell not?"
I booted up a translator, played around, and Avatum Veloth is what I came out with. Avatum Veloth. Pegasus the Swift.
So, there it is. I'm not sure how many people will read this. Or how many will care that much. But...
There it is.
^,=,^
I feel I owe an explanation. Kind of to you guys, after all, you're the people that put up with me. But also to myself. I dunno why, but it feels kinda like I'm letting go of a part of myself, and not in a bad way. It's like I've looked in a mirror for the first time since I was seventeen and seen who I am. What I've achieved. And to be honest, I kind of like it. Sure, I have my moments of madness, my fractured despairs, but that'll fade like the rest.
I'm sure some of you would quite happily testify to my hatred of humanity, my want to kill and maim and burn. This mindset that I had become so accustomed to, and, especially of late, it's dissipated. Don't get me wrong, the idea of a good burning still puts a fire in my belly, but no longer do I feel the way I did. I'm not as chaotic as I once was. I understand things now. The way we act, the way other people act. I appreciate humanity more. I LOVE humanity more.
I feel like I can spread my wings and reach out. My dreams are fully realised and well within my grasp, all I need to do is concentrate and close my claws. And to be honest, that's the easy part.
I have a name. I asked people for help, and I got, unsurprisingly, stupid replies ^,=,^
One stuck out in particular, thanks to Ryak, and people started to grab it and run away with it. Pegasus the Swift. It had a ring to it. HAS a ring to it. I laughed. It's a funny name, and the more I thought on it, the more I realised that the name doesn't matter. You're probably all just still gonna call me Jack anyway so, I thought... "Why the hell not?"
I booted up a translator, played around, and Avatum Veloth is what I came out with. Avatum Veloth. Pegasus the Swift.
So, there it is. I'm not sure how many people will read this. Or how many will care that much. But...
There it is.
^,=,^

Phenris
~phenris
I read it too! Interesting~

Azzyblue
~azzyblue
Life is one big, long, crazy journey. Being able to let go of hate instead of letting it consume you is a big step. I've definitely been there before. Congrats on your new name, and the turning of the new page in the story that is *you*.