What the hell happened to my productivity?
17 years ago
General
I've been saying that for the past ten years. Early on, I was upset because I wasn't filling three pages a day with sketches. Later, I was angry with myself for not drawing for several days at a time. Now, I look on my userpage at my uploads, and I see "16 days ago", "a month ago", "two months ago", etc. It's not that I don't upload very often, it's that I don't actually have anything to upload. I'm lucky if I can make a couple sketches a week. Almost everything I've done lately gets uploaded here.
My first impulse is to blame FurAffinity itself, like it's somehow been eating into my productivity. But like I said, it's been an almost straight downward slope for the past decade. In fact, FA actually stimulated my productivity at first, at a time when I was pumping out several requests a day.
Maybe I'm afraid to take risks, to do something different. When I was less skilled than I am now, I wasn't as well aware of my intrinsic artistic weaknesses. My sketches were more varied then ... sure, they sucked in deeply fundamental ways, but they were CREATIVE. I've been in a slump of herms and (ugh) scat lately ... which immediately makes me want to blame FA again, since the community rewards that kind of thing with comments, but that still doesn't explain it. There are a lot of OTHER strange things I could be drawing that would get even more attention.
I'm way behind on trades and commissions. I've got a couple commission requests from Foxcutter and Phrase that I've done nothing to work on. They're unpaid, fortunately ... I wouldn't ever think of asking for payment before finishing a picture, not in my current state. I've got a trade half that I've owed TayMonkey for the better part of a year, at LEAST ... he's been super nice about it, but it BUGS me that I've owed him for so long.
I feel like my memory's going. I get dreams confused with reality, and vice-versa. Days flow into each other, and I can't tell where the time goes. What do I DO all day? I'm not always sure.
I just saw American Splendor on IFC. Harvey Pekar detailed the events of his life with stick figures and dialogue balloons, and had artists illustrate them into comics. I've wanted to do that for years. Just, y'know, make stupid comics of my life and what I was thinking at the time. Not to show anyone, or to make money off of, but just for myself. But I never do.
I needed to write.
My first impulse is to blame FurAffinity itself, like it's somehow been eating into my productivity. But like I said, it's been an almost straight downward slope for the past decade. In fact, FA actually stimulated my productivity at first, at a time when I was pumping out several requests a day.
Maybe I'm afraid to take risks, to do something different. When I was less skilled than I am now, I wasn't as well aware of my intrinsic artistic weaknesses. My sketches were more varied then ... sure, they sucked in deeply fundamental ways, but they were CREATIVE. I've been in a slump of herms and (ugh) scat lately ... which immediately makes me want to blame FA again, since the community rewards that kind of thing with comments, but that still doesn't explain it. There are a lot of OTHER strange things I could be drawing that would get even more attention.
I'm way behind on trades and commissions. I've got a couple commission requests from Foxcutter and Phrase that I've done nothing to work on. They're unpaid, fortunately ... I wouldn't ever think of asking for payment before finishing a picture, not in my current state. I've got a trade half that I've owed TayMonkey for the better part of a year, at LEAST ... he's been super nice about it, but it BUGS me that I've owed him for so long.
I feel like my memory's going. I get dreams confused with reality, and vice-versa. Days flow into each other, and I can't tell where the time goes. What do I DO all day? I'm not always sure.
I just saw American Splendor on IFC. Harvey Pekar detailed the events of his life with stick figures and dialogue balloons, and had artists illustrate them into comics. I've wanted to do that for years. Just, y'know, make stupid comics of my life and what I was thinking at the time. Not to show anyone, or to make money off of, but just for myself. But I never do.
I needed to write.
FA+

But luckily I'm getting my groove back. Starting on several at a time while I still have mojo is a good solution, because its easier to work on something that I've already started.
Truth is though if we don't try somethin' new then what we protected so dearly fades even faster.
And dontchoo worry a bit.......I have trades of my own that have been settin' around fer quite some time......it sucks.......but they get done when they get done.... I hate sayin' it but school n' life come first.....then I like to work on my payed stuff....and then trades and leisurely drawrins........such is life bud but I definitely understand yah!
You would be surprised what little things can help. Waking up to see a perfect ray of sunlight. A silly contest, even if it's with yourself. Hell even reading a journal by an artist you like. This is the first time I've put real thought to written words in quite a while Also one of the few times recently I haven't tried to get the point across in as few words as possible. But I guess I have gone on quite long enough without really saying anything of any substance so here we go to simmer the pot and see that consume i can create. Motivation isn't a far off difficult prospect to be shrived for, but it's the only substance in the worlorld in more excess than Carbon
I feel like a million bucks after coming back from the gym. That feeling quickly disappears when I sit at the computer, which probably explains why my digital requests take months to get done, but I've been keeping up with my comic strips pretty well (except for last week, of course).
Take a quick jog or something, even just once, and see what happens. :)
I really don't have much to offer except that maybe you could try drawing stuff you don't normally draw. Get out of the "box".
Just keep plugging away.
at least that's the answer I came to when I thought about my lack of productivity. FA doesn't give any reason to try very hard so I just post crap that I hardly spent any thought on.
there's never (or rather, hardly ever) any serious input about images, no questions about any weak areas in pics. Nothing but "fapfap, that's hot, fap". It's amusing for an ego stroke, but get's tiresome quick. Yeah, I'm blaming FA for my lack of productivity >.>
I dunno, could try what Doc said or maybe changing your room up will work for you.
The next time you find yourself sitting bored staring at the comp or into space, just draw something. Don't even think about it, just do it.
Not because you suck or you don't 'appreciate the comments' or whatever, but because you're giving this place too much damn credit. The ONLY way you are going to get serious art critique here is to:
A. Draw really exceptional art, then ASK people to give you critiques on it; drawing the same smut as everyone else, then expecting the general crowd to suddenly turn critical is pointless. I mean, come on. There are people here with no avatar image and no submissions and no comments on any page who come here ONLY for the porn they download, and I would be willing to bet they number second only to the artists themselves... if not MORE than the artists.
B. The best critic for art is another artist. Note a bunch of people and ask them to crit your page. Be bold about it, and ask people of high, medium and low skill if they would take the time to look at your art and tell you where they think you could improve with lineart, perspective, color, etc. Not only is this likely to get you a few honest, open critiques, but you might learn something from someone you think is better than you and improve. And making friends never hurt anything either.
C. DRAW SOMETHING ELSE. I see this over and over again with certain artists. They draw one kind of thing, and expect that, no matter how many times they draw the SAME THING, they're going to have people comment with high clarity and detail, rather than 'OMG, HAWT!' If you draw porn all the time, draw something else. If you draw beefcake or cheesecake images all the time, draw something else. If you draw landscapes or skyscapes all the time... DRAW SOMETHING ELSE. Certain art draws certain viewers. If you draw the kind of art that attracts intelligent critique and intelligent viewers, you'll get more of that without asking. Test yourself, rather than laying in a rut and blaming other people for your being there. Use different mediums, or different paper, or anything besides what you've been doing. Expand your horizons and options, and you will become a better artist.
I want to say this again; I'm not trying to criticize. I'm not looking to insult anyone or say 'This is what you do, so now do what I say.' These are all concepts and ideas of why you might feel like FA is holding you down. FA is air. It's not a part of your life you can't do without, or a place that, if you don't get what you need from it, you can't go elsewhere. Example: Fchan. That place has people who will happily pick your art to pieces. TINY pieces. If you ask them to. I've seen pictures that get no real response here get literally half page length crits on there... and I'm sure there are even more legit places you can post your art to and have it dissected, if that's what you want. FA is a lot of things, but a limitation? That, I think, is only you *letting* it hold you back.
b. gave up on asking people to do shit because they never do it. this is a universal problem for me, has been since I was young. so I'm psychologically unlikely to ask for anything at this point, I just shrug the thought off now a days, especially for online matters, since it harbors more flakes than the norm.
c.I do try drawing other things, ALL THE TIME but since there's no quality check and lack of motivation to try I don't spend more time on them than I do. Even when I ask some other artists about the other things I draw they don't tell me shit. I'm not just centering this point around FA, this happens at school with peers and some art teachers. Unless I'm doing something they would do, how they like it they don't tell me shit but "it's cool" or "it's alright" very rarely will I get an anatomical question about the pic or "is there anything behind this, like a back story?"
So you see, as an artist I'm totally frustrated. NOBODY EVER GIVES ME ANY REASON TO TRY HARDER ANYWHERE I GO, I'm sick of asking online, because no one but the people I talk to on a regular basis actually listens to me. =p
For productivity, I need motivation, some kind of push that makes me want to try harder. Stroking my ego worked when I was younger and more naive than I am now, but I've matured a bit, if even it's just a little bit, over the years. yeah, but Fchan users sometimes ask the impossible, they nitpick at things, yeah sometimes they DO have interesting things to say, but a lot of the time some are doing it just to be annoying and other times they say shit and give no hint or suggestion on what you could do to fix it, then you have some that are like some users on WTF pages, can hardly draw a circle and still think they know exactly what they're talking about.
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Overall my blame on FA is only half hearted at best. I more geared it to "the lack of posting here" rather than the lack of drawing at all, I still draw, I still sketch. Any time I think I'm not doing something fun or productive, I try to draw. I just have no real need to post the stuff since there's no external quality checking. After a bunch of posts, I figured out that my personal thoughts/concepts don't mean shit to anyone but me so why bother post about them. and since no one really questioned the things they did like that I drew, it just got slowly degraded since there was no real need for the upkeep in presentation.
10 year ago? I went through sketchbooks like potato chips. Really off-the-wall, creative stuff. Then in high school I slowed down a lot. When I actually started learning about art technique in college I got really self-conscious about my work, and saw all these flaws I never noticed before. A lot of the fun drained out of it, along with my motivation. And now that I have a "real job," I mainly only draw on the rare occasions when I do life drawing.
If there's anything I can say in the way of encouragement, it's that several older folks have told me that they went through a phase like this at my age (the same as your age, if your user page is accurate) and simply got over it with time, without really discerning any particular cause. That's second-hand, of course, but I find it makes me feel a little better anyway.
I should also say that much as I love your scatsations, I always enjoy your regular clean humor too!
Damn you.
Tanks cure all the worlds ills with brute force.
I like brute force, if it doesn't work, it just means you aren't using enough.
Not that I haven't enjoyed your herms, they're always well done.
You should try something else for once. Like how I realized recently how fun I have with Valve Hammer editor for Source-based games...
I don't even get rewarded for hermage anymore.
Mostly when i draw a non-lulzy herm I get the same furs who leave minimalistic compliments instead of telling me what they liked about the piece, and maybe what they didn't like. I mean crack a joke about the situation the character is in or something, Christ.
Maybe I am just too freakish for my own good.
Srsly though, it seems like now all I get are "WTF" and "OMG WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT" and stuff.
I just ignore it and draw more of it.
You see herms everywhere on FA now, from every type of artist, in every imaginable situation... if you go out into the Sahara and make a pile of sand, do you really expect people to notice?
Sorry if it sounds like I'm criticizing or something; I'm just making a point. If you don't even *try* to stand out, it shouldn't be much of a surprise if you don't stand out. And if you don't stand out at all... no one notices you.
For you, just from reading your post, I see something else as well. You sound as if you're not really doing anything that stands out as interesting, especially fun (this means more than hanging out like you always do or playing games you always play, etc), or exciting in any way. It sounds as if you're not doing anything new... and as a result, your ideas are being smothered under a layer of mediocrity and the familiar.
Some suggestions to help you kinda get back that energy? Look at your last picture. Whatever it was, think on it for a bit (if you need to, make some time to actually do this). Don't bother writing anything or drawing anything; what you need to do is try to pry the floodgates open again. Think of what the character in the picture is doing, why they look the way they do, what their history and present situation is. Think about, for example, how being a hyper herm would affect their life as far as those same things you do every day; going to work/school, hanging out with friends, laying around doing nothing... whatever you do. And yes, if it's a scat picture (if I remember right, either your characters can't or just don't control that sort of thing) do the same for that. Build a mental world for the character, and then reach further.
In that world, is this condition normal, unique, or does it only effect certain people? Are there places that treat/accept this sort of thing? Is there a place that CAUSES it? Why? Is it accidental or on purpose? If accidental, how did this person come in contact with that place/thing/person... if they did at all? If on purpose, why did they do it to this person? Why? Did they do it at all?
Questions and World Construction can help a LOT when it comes to doing anything creative... And yes, I just basically said 'In order to create, you have to create.' ^^ The trick of it is that it requires the use of your imagination. You sound as if though you have some images in your mind, they are all running to basically the same concepts, with neither continuity or purpose. You draw herms because either people like herms or you like herms... and that's it. If you build on the concept some, you can work out some ideas on what you can draw from there.
If it's time you're lacking, I would suggest just setting aside some time... if only a half an hour a day... where you set yourself in a comfortable drawing place, and focus on putting your pen to paper, scribbling if you have nothing in mind. Using the skills you have should keep some interest, and if nothing else, doing it regularly will fix it in the daily pattern you have, and hopefully make it something you look forward to.
If you're feeling lazy about it all... go out and take a walk for a while before you do. I'm not the fat, lazy type, but I do get stuck in a rut sometimes where I don't do anything overtly physical from time to time. Getting my blood pumping a bit harder and working my body usually puts a bit more energy in my body and mind, and wakes me up fully mentally; something I would think would be useful for drawing.
These are all just ideas and suggestions; I have no idea what is actually going on in your life as a whole. I hope one or two of them will help spark some kind of interest or ideas for you so you can get back to drawing again. I LOVED the way you drew Uryl and the rest of Aubrin's characters, and I think I told you as much once before... maybe even a stint of drawing other people's characters for inspiration is in order, to introduce something new to your thoughts?
I don't mean nor like to nitpick, but I noticed a lot of your submissions were adult artwork. Don't get me wrong, you draw it quite well but my big dislike of that is that it's all same old same old. You know what to expect. I'm not saying you should stop mature artwork, but with cleaner art of a different and maybe even completely unrelated subject matter on a regular basis it might breathe a new life into your productivity. Think about why you started drawing in the first place ;)
That's one of the reasons I started watching you, actually. Your stuff reminds me of the wild ideas I used to have.
I did dabble with mature themes but have kind of put that to the side for the time being because I feel I've explored it as much as I can just now. I've always been one of those guys with varied subject matter since I get bored easily and want to keep myself entertained drawing different themes. ^^
Or maybe draw something you see every day but have never really focused on, from memory, and then compare it to the object in question. :D
Remember, I'm not an artist, so my advice is worth about 60 cents less per pound, even if I charge more for it. c:
I agree with DracosBlackwing that character and world construction is a very good source of ideas and inspiration.
You do not need to oly use your own characters for that, you also yust can tale a picture you like and construct a background for that character (the second step is giving your creation a look that differs enough from the character it was inspired by but still fits completely to the background)
or you take parts (not the whole thing, yust some aspects and combinations of one or more character background, it can be yust the history or any aspect including the outer appearance, described habits, skills etc and complete them with what comes to your brain while wiriting)
Any aspect and combination you find anywhere and it interests you (herms for example) becomes part of your mental toolkit, the only other tools are what you copletely created on your own and each mix and combination of these both. Do not force yourself to built up something with these tools and forges, yust let your mind play free with them like with Lego pieces and be realxed enough that the result can rise to the surface, then use and modify it for anything you want or have an idea where it fits into.
Write down your dreams and if any idea falls into your mind, how to contiune the journey or to fill the parts of the dream you do not remeber or that got lost by interruptions like waking up, write it down alike.
Writing and drawing are the best ways to get new ideas as the ideas put on paper are a flow making way for new ideas, and then they come when you are ready, in the best case it is a flow of creating whole stories from one image.
Tabletop gamed or pc games are sometimes very inspiring, Ihave filled dozens of pages with ideas for customizing or redesigning or creating newminiatures, units, heroes and armies.
See what comes to your mind or pictures you like as the beginnig of a parth, each time you look at it can be a new parth or a new ride on an old one, yust explore them, not force into, yust look around curious.
I understand the reasons why you blame FA, and as far as I can see many are right, and all are curable by spending more time somewhere else where you can get new ideas. Architecture can be very inspiring, or going to the museum (also a very fine place to relax and to put things onto paper)
Fine online art you find here:
http://www.conceptart.org/
http://www.cgsociety.org/
http://www.deviantart.com (can send you a note with my favourite artists from there if you want)
too much school and work and xbox is my case