i decided a couple nights ago, with the nudging of a friend, to finish something i started 20 years ago. for a creative writing class, i wrote a short story. now, 20 years later, i have edited and re-written parts of it. When i first started, i drew the illustrations to go along with the story. oh, did i mention it's a children's mystery? now that i'm into my 3D stuff, i am going to learn to make my own models of the main characters, and illustrate it that way. i am so nervous about it, i have butterflies in my tummy. never did anything like this before. i've been burned before, so i'm scared that i'll do all this work (creating the models from scratch) and have some publisher say they aren't interested. i suffer from depression, and the thing that scares me the most is that i'll do all the work, get it printed out, thee publisher won't like it, and i'll spiral down lower than i've been before.