so, my back pain hasn't been doing so well. i go every 3 months to get steroid injections in my lower spine. the past 2 times haven't helped, so i've been in a lot of pain. i have to go nov 19th for another MRI (last one was last year), to find out what is going on back there. no over the counter pain meds work, so i've been sitting every nite with either my ice pack or my heating pad. haven't been up to doing either any art or beading.

another thing is that i was put on birth control pills to get me back to how i need to be. however, as i learned with other meds, if there are side effects, i will get them. so my anxiety has been getting much worse, as well as mood swings. i'm either about to cry at the drop of a hat, or upset about something stupid. because of this, i'm scared i'm gonna lose friends and people i care about.

with the holiday season coming up, i'm scared i'm gonna lose it at work, and cry at the first customer that yells at me.

just wanted you to know why i haven't been around for awhile. i swear, once things get settled and figured out, i'll be back.