This broken heart of mine bears many scars and now a brand new gaping wound. maybe that's what I get for being who I am, for wearing it on my sleeve and offering it up for those I care for and just to have it stabbed, and thrown, and stepped on. maybe I should coat it in steel and lock it away so it doesn't get hurt anymore. Is it such a problem that i be happy with someone? what is it about me that makes it so no one wants me. I put all I have into a relationship and yet its not enough, I poor my whole being into it and i come out exhausted and broken everytime because it feels like I'm the only one who tries. I tried to get out there, I was giving up my life and moving away from my family for her so she doesn't have to be away from hers and that wasn't good enough. I feel so tired right now. Tired of trying, tired of everything. I treated her the best I could and I doubt she will find anybody who cared for her as much as I did. I want her back so much but i feel like even if she does want me back I won't be able to accept her again for fear of being hurt a third time. I want to let go like she did but its so difficult to let go of someone you love more than anything or anyone in this world.