I've always had an animal side, but that's a side I always tried to ignore. I would shut it down. I would hush it out. Why couldn't I just be NORMAL I thought? I wanted to be normal as society dictated. My mom taught me that being normal, living to expectations...that was a good thing...but for me, that's NOT a good thing
Fact of the matter is, I'm not normal, and to try and cater to societies 'expectations' would mean to give up things that make me truly happy
The greatest times I had as a child was scampering around as an animal. I would play as a Pokemon, as any animal I adored, and that, THAT is what made me happy. I had so much fun, surrounded myself with stuffed animals that were my 'children', used a blanket as a tail...but as I got older, I had to push that away

But now, I'm letting the animal back out. I'm letting her frolick and run free, and be who she really is. Xsania does NOT like to be ignored, and I'll ignore her no more. I'm going to embrace her, and bring her in as more of a part of my life. She is me, and I am her, and though not everyone can accept or understand, there are people out there who will, and those people will be my support and mean the world to me
I'm very new to all of this in being I guess 'out' as a furry to myself, but a part of me...knew all along
So I can't wait to explore more of myself, to explore more with others...to enjoy all there is to enjoy in this wonderful new life I've had opened up to me