Moving on up... to Seattle
13 years ago
Hey.
So. It's been a while since I've been here on FA. My summer has been crazy. I just got back last night from two weeks of travel, and that was RIGHT after another week... I got a new car, and it's taking me everywhere...
I'm moving to Seattle! Yeah. That's happening in like... within a couple weeks. Being in this small southern Oregon town has been killing me slowly. And my friends up there have almost all been awesome. So. I'm moving. I'll be writing and either land a teaching job or subbing for high school and jr. high.
Uh... I can't remember my previous posts really well but ... I think I mentioned struggling with my sexuality and all that. Weeeeell the struggle is done. I'm into guys. And that's part of moving up to Seattle. All of my Bible college friends up there have all been accepting and loving, so I'm going to go be around them for a while. Also, I want to be in a bigger city! Does anyone I know through this live up there?! That'd be kind of cool. But I've already started making new friends up there who are gay and what not, and, like I said, piles of good old fiends who know all about me and love me and are supportive and stuff.
Oh that's new. So I've been coming out a lot... Everyone I know up in the Seattle area knows now. Only ONE guy out of... how many... like maybe SIXTEEN friends up there reacted badly! He tried to make up for it by being a total dick, but... that's not that bad! All the rest have rallied. My family who live in San Francisco have taken it fine (told then two weeks ago), my mom and dad took it great (week and a half for dad), and my brother is supportive but it's taking time. There are some tough ones. But really... only a few. I'm very fortunate, and thankful.
So that's what's been keeping me all off this and busy! I'm doing pretty good though. And alive. And seeing guys now...
Thanks for reading all of this! any feedback would be great. Or spam. Anything really.
So. It's been a while since I've been here on FA. My summer has been crazy. I just got back last night from two weeks of travel, and that was RIGHT after another week... I got a new car, and it's taking me everywhere...
I'm moving to Seattle! Yeah. That's happening in like... within a couple weeks. Being in this small southern Oregon town has been killing me slowly. And my friends up there have almost all been awesome. So. I'm moving. I'll be writing and either land a teaching job or subbing for high school and jr. high.
Uh... I can't remember my previous posts really well but ... I think I mentioned struggling with my sexuality and all that. Weeeeell the struggle is done. I'm into guys. And that's part of moving up to Seattle. All of my Bible college friends up there have all been accepting and loving, so I'm going to go be around them for a while. Also, I want to be in a bigger city! Does anyone I know through this live up there?! That'd be kind of cool. But I've already started making new friends up there who are gay and what not, and, like I said, piles of good old fiends who know all about me and love me and are supportive and stuff.
Oh that's new. So I've been coming out a lot... Everyone I know up in the Seattle area knows now. Only ONE guy out of... how many... like maybe SIXTEEN friends up there reacted badly! He tried to make up for it by being a total dick, but... that's not that bad! All the rest have rallied. My family who live in San Francisco have taken it fine (told then two weeks ago), my mom and dad took it great (week and a half for dad), and my brother is supportive but it's taking time. There are some tough ones. But really... only a few. I'm very fortunate, and thankful.
So that's what's been keeping me all off this and busy! I'm doing pretty good though. And alive. And seeing guys now...
Thanks for reading all of this! any feedback would be great. Or spam. Anything really.
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You're welcome!
Don't forget that I'm here if you ever need to talk!
Also, what will you be writing? I'd love to read it sometime! And about the teaching/substitute job..... if you were either one of those and I was still in school, I would shoot the breeze with you so badly. XD we would be like best friends or something. Just be careful. Computers or vehicles would probably make you want to beat your head in if we got on those topics. hahahah!
:P "and seeing guys now..." Have you seen any that are attractive to you? (this is my normal tired conversation. I pry too much. XD; )
Uh... ok, so writing, well, I have two things. I write for a website about skateboarding (www.skateboard.about.com). That's one of my jobs. And I'm writing the second mission for my Mobile Armored Marine text game app (it's free in the android and iphone markets). Someday I'd like to actually finish a book I started too... jeez... someday! It's even furry-ish!
And yeah, something about me pulls a lot of students in to just sit and talk, and I love it! :0) Except that one of the seniors from last year when I did my student teaching found me on some gay apps... kinda funny! I didn't know he was gay, and he didn't know about me either... soooo awkward, and funny! Don't worry, he's in California now. That'd be weird!
And yeah, I've seen several guys now who I've found attractive... um... yeah. Not like piles and piles but... some. Yeah. I don't mind talking about this at all, in fact I like it! I just don't know if you want more info... :0P
OH GOD REALLY!? xDDDD How did you two find eachother? Did you two talk to eachother about that? What happened and who realized it first! X3 I know if it was you and me we'd just talk and talk to the point that most people would think something about us. X3 (I've been known to talk for 4 hours at a time nonstop. hahaha!)
hhehehe. I kinda do. I'm just like this always. This is why most people don't like talking to me I guess. x3 I would like to know more about them though. =3
The ex student found me on Scruff and Adam 4 Adam... he was just flirting with me, and revealed that he had just graduated from here, and I told him that I was just student teaching here and for who, and he said, "I THOUGHT you looked familiar!" XP
The kinds of guys I've found attractive... uh... well I always knew I liked bigger guys. Football player builds. Even in friends, I've been drawn to stockier or taller guys. But then there's been others too, now that I'm looking at guys more honestly... like... well there was this one small, skinny tattooed guy who was kinda angry a lot, wore wife beaters and stuff, and for some reason I really liked him... And there's another guy who came across seeming more "gay" than I normally go for (I go for guys who just seem "normal" usually - no gay accent or flamboyant anything). He was frustrating because I didn't know why I liked him, but I LIKED him! So we were together a lot for a while. You'll notice there's a rash of drawings with lions in them that I did? He's a leo, and had lots of lion themed tattoos. :0) Yeah so... I don't know what I like, but so far I like a lot! It seems like pretty eyes and a quick smile and laugh go a long way for me...
Hmm.... that would be an interesting thing to read. How about we send eachother what we're writing so that way we can get some input on it? Do you think that would be a good idea? I'd like to read your book, and if you want a critique, I'm sure I can be up to it. x3
OH MY GOD! XDDD That must have been a sight. hahahahah! I've heard about both of those websites, and for a while I thought about making an account there, but then since I found someone, I thought it would be a bit awkward. Have you heard of realjock.com? I found that website a while back and forgot about it until now. You might be able to find someone there that might spark some interest :3
That would have been odd if you two found each other WHILE you were teaching there. xD Though if it was me, I'd probably be ALL up in your bidness and you'd be like, "get the hell away from me! Dx" most likely. Though I'd also help you grade papers or get you drinks and other menial tasks like that hahahahah!
Hmmmm that sounds quite interesting. I tend to like fit men of oriental or Spanish descent (surprise surprise), though I really have not known what attracts me to them. It's like I've always felt more comfortable around them, but if I can't understand them, then I get extremely shy XD.
I have gone out of that general attraction though, some being bigger than me, others being chunkier than me, but it all came down to how we treated each other. It was never like we were expecting something from the other person. We would more or less be happy with the way we were, but if the other person wanted to try something, I'd support them. However, for reasons beyond my control, those relationships fell apart, but in this current relationship, it's a bit scary with the distance and familial stances on us get stacked against us. Still, the experiences I've had I would not trade for anything in the world. Hearing this about you, it sounds like you're still experimenting with what you like most. Am I right about that? hehehehe X3
Really now? Pretty eyes and a cute smile get you?
Feels good now? :3
I had busy summer too :o But only this summer had 2 awesome sunny week :/ And I have thought about that "Where have you been?" :DD I really kind of miss you and your art x3
And yeah. It feels very very good. Right now I'd say I'm like 2/3rds into guys, but still a third into girls. From what my counselor buddy says, that's actually pretty common! Kinda funny.
You'll enjoy living in Seattle! I lived there for several years and I'm sure you'll find it full of creative people to get to know! *rarwf!*
The REAL amazing thing is that anyone who's facebook friends with me SHOULD know! All the art I draw here I post there too, and I pretty much only draw furry art! Sooooo... it's more obvious that I'm furry than that I'm gay! But still no one seems to know...
Good luck with your family. Maybe you should just show up to thanksgiving dinner in a wolf fursuit... :0)
The last person who tried to put down furries was one of my employees - I simply stood there at his cube and told him what I really was.
I could see the gears start to turn and he very much apologized. Things have always been good with him and even now asks me if I've scared the neighbours yet with my fursuit *smile*