So I'm in College, the first week is over, I've made new friends, love my roommates, felt the pain of parting with a month's pay for books I really don't need...It is a start, but the most recent development...I came out to one of my roommates and his girlfriend. The first two people I have ever told in real life, and not over text.

They thought I was kidding.

I assured them it was true, and they accepted it as only friends could.

I felt an emotion I really didn't know how to cope with, so I just smiled.

I don't know how to feel about it, I'm happy that I finally told someone, surprised that it came out nonchalantly, as if I told them that I had brown hair, but it is just the strangest thing... If it were people I had known for a year, I would probably have started crying, but I felt so comfortable that I just couldn't help it. Frankly, I do not think I could tell anyone else. For over a two years, I have had that weight of not being able to talk to anyone about it.

It was killing me on the inside.

It felt like I was lying to everyone.

It is a start, and hopefully I'll grow in to myself. Finally be comfortable with who I am, and I am not quite there, but I suppose "telling" is the first step.


Even if this is never read, I'm glad to have someplace to record it.