Well...as some of you guys know, my dog was put to sleep a couple weeks ago. She was a 17 year old Boxer/Black Lab mix and one of the best dogs anyone could ever ask for. She was always there for me, treated me and my twin brother as her puppies even when we grew up and towered over her. Her name is Bear and she will always be not only my first but also the best dog in my life.

About a couple days after we had her put to sleep, my great grandma, Marian Schmidt fell into a comatose state. She has had Alzheimers really bad for the last couple years and it just got worse as time went on. Well, she passed away this past Tuesday or Wednesday at 6:15am. She hadn't eaten anything in a week because of being in the state that she was in, and so her body finally shut down.

So I went to the showing yesterday for all of the afternoon, went home, got nekkid, cried, fell asleep, woke up in the middle of the night, cried more, fell back asleep. Did that for all of last night and only got 1 hour of sleep total. Now I am heading to the funeral with lack of sleep, but strained eyes from the crying, and a REALLY bad headache (causes are unknown.) Then I have to work from 1-7 today after the funeral...more *put swear word here* fun for me.

The next few days whether we text or just talk online, if I seem kind of distant and possibly not on as much...its because of work and also the fact of me in one of those "I hate how the world is turning out" moods and thinking very bad thoughts.

Everyone that cares about me, thank you very much and I love you all.