well as you read in my last journal my boyfriend admitted some stuff to me, after he did I decided to be honest and tell him that I was pretty much gonna propose to him a MFF, which made him feel like a douchebag and an idiot and he realized that ive been the light in his darkness and the clear choice all along and he should stay with me.

He decided he wont give the other guy any further thought, and really made it clear he wont cheat on me again and wrote something and drew some stuff which were really sweet.

he's regained some but not all of my trust, and he knows that if he cheats again I probably wont be able to forgive it again.

time will tell if he can avoid having it happen again.