Hello everyone.

Once again I come to you all after going dark for a while. I feel like this is a combination of general laziness....and...well...other things. I will get to what I mean in a bit. As for right now, I wanna just talk about some things that I have been up to.

Things have been rather quiet when it comes to my little...suprises. I have managed to keep my fluids to myself. Okay...that sounded kinda weird but you know what I mean. No more transformations...well no new ones anyways...sort of. *sigh* Okay I guess I should explain myself. If you all remember a while ago I was out of a job after my transformation. While job hunting...well...there was this cute secretary and...we kinda shared a kiss or thirty in a vacant office before my interview. Well...I am pretty sure she doesn't work there anymore. I...sort of found her while searching for ..um....something to pleasure myself to about a week ago. I recognized her face and knew it was her...but the body she possessed was not the cute thin but slightly curvy kind she had before. Or even completely female anymore. I have never seen breasts that big in my life...they were like...beanbag chairs attached to her chest. And she has a dick too! like...thicker than her arm! With endowments that huge she still manages to get around pretty well...or at least from what I saw in the dozen videos I downloaded....and watched....many times. She seems pretty happy though from what I can gather from interviews I read about her.

Onto less weird news...Anu Kari and I went to the beach! I have a picture too. I will be posting that pretty soon so be on the lookout for that. We had a very good time. I was glad I got to go before summer was over. Mmm, what else... Well I grew another 2 inches since last we talked. My bust is about the same size....my P cup bra is a tiny bit snug fitting, but I can still fit in it. What else....? I have been playing some games. I got a special reproduction cartridge of Mother 3 with the fan translation on it. I might have paid a bit too much for it than I should have...but I am more or less happy with what I got. Speacking of gaming stuff. Do...you guys wanna hear me talk more about gaming? I have some stuff to say and I wouldn't mind sharing my thoughts. Let me know in the comments.

So now onto some stuff....that I am not too proud about. The other main reason I haven't been posting much is...well...I have been having some thoughts lately. About what I can do to people....and...well...enjoying it too much. Its hard to even get my words out as I type this. I know its wrong to...like what I have done to these people...changing them. Ever since I saw Trish change in the middle of the store...I...I really liked it. When I heard about Emma's growth...it sent a little thrill up my spine when I found out that...I did that. Ever since then...I have been wanting it to happen again. I have thought about having another person change against their will... One day after work I was out grabbing a bite to eat at this little Mexican place close by my house. There was this cute girl sitting near me. All of a sudden she had to use the bathroom...and I was alone in the room. It pretty close to the place's closing time...so all the employees were in the back cleaning up...and there were no other customers. It was just me. I remembered that I had a little bit of my milk in my purse. Earlier that day I had to releave a little pressure in my breasts...and I wanted to make sure I didn't leave any drops behind. I...was actually thinking of tipping the bottle into her drink...just to watch her change. It...actually took restraint to stop myself from doing it. Here and there I have had more urges to change others. I keep trying to rationalize with myself that everyone that I changed so far seemed much happier...but...I know its wrong to think these things.

*sigh* I don't know what to do guys. I have been wondering if these urges are something that came along with my changes, just like my abilities transform others....or if this is something I have discovered about myself...like I have had these urges to do these things..but never had the means to do so. I don't know what to do....I know the thoughts I have are wrong...but....I dunno

I should just end it off here I think. I didn't mean to have this end on such a downer...but...I wasn't even planning to go into all of this until halfway through writing this. Anyways guys....I will talk to you all soon.

~Lily