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Music and the mood it drives.
17 years ago
The Rantings of an Art Crazed Chow, Second verse, same as the first.
Sometimes it takes a little tune, a few bars of an obscure song to evoke those pesky little things we call emotions. Between struggling to produce something meaning in the ways of art, and fighting for my love life to prevent it from crashing and burning, I've turned to music to sooth and calm me. I am a person who's musical tastes run from the extremes, from one side to another without common ground in the middle. I am a curious thing, not bound by my racial tethers, I don't really like hip-hop or gangster rap, and old school black music just makes me yawn and remember the bad old days. There are only a few country songs I can listen to and standard pop and rock only fills the gap for a few moments. Comedy does fill the need sometimes but it is only just a quick high before I crash and burn. Like I said, I'm a curious thing.
Only one song lately has gotten me going and given me just a glimmer of hope that life is not too bad. Gwen Stefanni's "Cool". I do not know why this song calms me, perhaps it is the melody and the riffs that is in it. Lord knows it may not be the lyrics, the whole song seems like a bit of regret, a girl who loses her boyfriend but believes they are still good friends. I don't know, I had so many friends who were females who chose another over me and still wanted to be good friends. I feel sad that I chose to distance myself from them cause at this point in the game of life, friends of the opposite sex is much needed, if anything just to be there and nothing more, to assure me that all women are not bad or evil in comparison to my girlfriend.
I do not wish to become a bitter person, one who scorns others for their good fortune and life, but it is still a battle for me. The more I listen to this song, the more pain I feel, yet the melody and the lyrics whisper to me, saying "I know were cool!" In some near future, I may make my girlfriend my wife, we will live together and fight and argue, I will curl up in a ball so not to hurt her both physically and with words because in today's culture, showing aggression towards women is wrong.
Oh well, I've bled myself out emotionally so I'll just play this song again, sigh and continue drawing. Cheers.
Only one song lately has gotten me going and given me just a glimmer of hope that life is not too bad. Gwen Stefanni's "Cool". I do not know why this song calms me, perhaps it is the melody and the riffs that is in it. Lord knows it may not be the lyrics, the whole song seems like a bit of regret, a girl who loses her boyfriend but believes they are still good friends. I don't know, I had so many friends who were females who chose another over me and still wanted to be good friends. I feel sad that I chose to distance myself from them cause at this point in the game of life, friends of the opposite sex is much needed, if anything just to be there and nothing more, to assure me that all women are not bad or evil in comparison to my girlfriend.
I do not wish to become a bitter person, one who scorns others for their good fortune and life, but it is still a battle for me. The more I listen to this song, the more pain I feel, yet the melody and the lyrics whisper to me, saying "I know were cool!" In some near future, I may make my girlfriend my wife, we will live together and fight and argue, I will curl up in a ball so not to hurt her both physically and with words because in today's culture, showing aggression towards women is wrong.
Oh well, I've bled myself out emotionally so I'll just play this song again, sigh and continue drawing. Cheers.
tigerdemon
~tigerdemon
hmmm interesting chioce of song not really my thing though !! ',..,'
dsand101
~dsand101
OP
Yea, I'm really horrible when it comes to music. But I figure this phase will pass and I'll find something else to fixate on, maybe Barns and Barns Fishheads.
