I was going to wait on this, but I figured it was a better time now than any.

Furaffinity has offered me a lot since I first joined it. It's made me feel more legitimate as an artist, I've met some awesome people, and I've discovered some amazing artists. But I kind of screwed that all up for myself by taking on more than I could manage, and now I feel people have lost their respect for me as an artist because of the wait I've made some people endure. Not only that, but there are reminders here that plague me. I am a person of guilt, I feel guilty for so many things in my life, many of which are likely needless. I'm not a happy person. In fact, within the past few months, I've been the unhappiest I've been in years. I think of my life as worthless, contemplate suicide but only really resist it because I know how it would harm my family. I'm dealing with baggage, and trauma, that no human being should have to face, and while many people are on my shoes, its something I've only just discovered. It hasn't helped that there has been so much drama in my life. With work, with school, with relationships. I thought I was in love, but because of how things deteriorated that person just looks at me like a monster now. Now, I'm pretty much confident that I'm incapable of relationships at this point in my life, I barely even know how to relate to people anymore. I feel like a stranger to myself, because I know so little about myself and remember so little about my past. I try to explain myself to people and just make things worse, and I'm so stupid that I keep putting myself into those situations. And now, today, to top it all off, I come home to find my gargoyle gecko dead, because apparently I'm incompetent in that regard as well.

Anyway, all of this is to say that I'm leaving this account. I love enraptured and all I've done here, but there's too many bad memories, too much dirt for me to make much use of it anymore. I'm dealing with too much in my head right now to let others rely on me, so I'm getting away from that identity. I'll be moving to a new account, but I'm not going to hand it out to anyone. I'll just keep a low profile, talk to friends and admire artists, maybe post some art from time to time. If you'd like to know my new account, you can note me, but otherwise I'm not going to advertise it.

To those I still owe artwork to, I'm not just running away from that responsibility. It will get done, I promise, and if you're sick of waiting, just note me and we can figure out a way to reimburse you. I'm currently jobless, but I'll figure something out. Its only fair.


So, goodbye.