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Well...my life is not really how I thought it would be now..
13 years ago
but I am trying to make the best of it. I mean, I thought I was going to be a good college student but in reality...I failed my last semester and owe 7k+ for just 2 semesters of college of student loans.
I have a job that is not enough to live even with a roommate in this economy here because of having to pay $106 a month for car insurance, then money for food and my cell phone. That isn't including what I would be paying for utilities and rent...
Speaking of cars...I am not able to drive until November 6th at the latest because of some mistakes that I have made behind the wheel since 2010.
When I was younger, I had such enthusiasm for school, doing stuff for people that didn't contribute to me at all, but as I got older I guess it all died for some reason. I hate you real world and your cruelty.
*sighs*
Well...I am here, on my laptop, at my grandmas in one of her rooms that she lets me stay in when I would spend the night here. It isn't much but it will do. I only have about 4 boxes of clothes left from my house. The rest are either getting thrown away or going to goodwill. My ps2 from my dads, a couple blankets (going to be getting my sheets and bed when I have a place to store them and/or use them). I also have my golf clubs, my skateboard, a couple hats, and my alarm clock.
Honestly...I know I could be worse off but I definitely know that if I tried harder and didn't mess up in High School than I would be way better off than I am now. Because of all this, I honestly feel like a big disappointment to the whole family. My brother has his own place with his gf, a decent job, military. My dad has a great job working for Kokome (Korean battery plant). My mom works for the state and is doing good. All I have to show is a crappy job, not being able to be my own person, and as some would say...a lousy son. (No my family did not say that...yet...)
There are times where I am less talkative than others and now you know why... Just not happy at all with how I ended up in this situation. I know its my fault but I don't know how to make any of it better. All I know is that I need to work full time in order to get a crappy apartment and eat about 1-2 meals a day to live...
I have a job that is not enough to live even with a roommate in this economy here because of having to pay $106 a month for car insurance, then money for food and my cell phone. That isn't including what I would be paying for utilities and rent...
Speaking of cars...I am not able to drive until November 6th at the latest because of some mistakes that I have made behind the wheel since 2010.
When I was younger, I had such enthusiasm for school, doing stuff for people that didn't contribute to me at all, but as I got older I guess it all died for some reason. I hate you real world and your cruelty.
*sighs*
Well...I am here, on my laptop, at my grandmas in one of her rooms that she lets me stay in when I would spend the night here. It isn't much but it will do. I only have about 4 boxes of clothes left from my house. The rest are either getting thrown away or going to goodwill. My ps2 from my dads, a couple blankets (going to be getting my sheets and bed when I have a place to store them and/or use them). I also have my golf clubs, my skateboard, a couple hats, and my alarm clock.
Honestly...I know I could be worse off but I definitely know that if I tried harder and didn't mess up in High School than I would be way better off than I am now. Because of all this, I honestly feel like a big disappointment to the whole family. My brother has his own place with his gf, a decent job, military. My dad has a great job working for Kokome (Korean battery plant). My mom works for the state and is doing good. All I have to show is a crappy job, not being able to be my own person, and as some would say...a lousy son. (No my family did not say that...yet...)
There are times where I am less talkative than others and now you know why... Just not happy at all with how I ended up in this situation. I know its my fault but I don't know how to make any of it better. All I know is that I need to work full time in order to get a crappy apartment and eat about 1-2 meals a day to live...
