I remember the ones I've lost and everything that it's cost
and trying to be sane though it all seems to be vain
I keep moving for not stopping to thinks sake and all though I seem composed its really all that I can take

Time slipping slowly by, our loved ones come and pass us by
I wish I had more to say, but some things never seem to stay
to keep it all in mind is something that I've never tried
for fear it'll all leak out, but faster I seem to doubt
that I have the composure for all of this closure and coming to terms with the things that I haven't accepted

Rested, is what I should be, to make it through this life of despair and hypocrisy but I doubt I'll ever get to see, what I need to make me who I need to be..So I live on, the memories flooding my mind, the whos and whats and the hows and the whys.

The trials, they will come and they will go, but something is telling me something I already know, that no matter how much I think and I doubt, that really no matter what you think theres no easy way out

So fighting is the only choice I have left, even if it means going on with out the ones floating in my head, I know I can be sick and tired, fed up with life, but going out is that option that only cowards will find

So rather then being that memory that makes my friends come to tears, I'll be something that the adverse will fear, the one that seems to make it, the one that seems to take it and the one that comes and makes life what I make it
To come to terms with what I've lost and all thats its cost, and to try to stay sane although the world is in disdain.

Finishes 10/30/12 @ 6:36 a.m. - For the loved ones that I've lost. I miss you ~Kota tiger