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Life update for those who were wondering.
13 years ago
Well lets see. Recently I moved into a new place. Yes, I finally got out of the hell hole I was in, thank god. And that move was rather quick and easy if you ask me. Although I didn't get to say all my goodbye. Oh well though.
Ever since I moved thought it's been really high stress and anxiety for me. The stress due to the fact of over worrying among other things. I'm hoping I find a job sooner rather then lately, and with each passing day it makes me feel more and more stressed.
Also I have some horribly depressions issues that need to be looked at by a doctor or something. It's so bad that I haven't been myself lately, and everyone around me is noticing that. I dunno what I'm going to do about that, and even if I did do something I don't think it would help. I think I might have deeper issues that even I wont bring up or touch. Lets just say my life has been all kinds of crazy and fucked up. :(
I'm also starting to think what I went to school for was a complete waste of my time!
Another big issue was what my BF did, which bother me, but I couldn't do much about. What he did was convince me to move to the new place sooner rather then later. But before this we both talked and wanted to do it together because he knew how scared I was to do this. But after I moved in and I hoped he'd follow, he didn't, and now he isn't showing up till after Dec. Made me feel like I did this for nothing, and if this was his was of a "friendly encouraging push" then he's dead wrong. It put more stress on me then anything.
Not to say though Both of my new roomy's have been nothing but supportive, it just still feels awkward. Not to mention I feel so out of place.
The biggest thing that eats at me is that if I give up it's all over. Not to mention I have no real safety net to fall back on. So I screw up this time and it's game over. :( Now that's all fine and stuff, but when every time you've tried you ended up failing, that's where it worries me. but nothing I can do about that it. That's life's harsh reality. Not much I can do but keep on trying, although with each day I feel less and less importation and that I wont be able to do it.
Oh well I guess. I'm either going to succeed or fail, and chances are it's going to not go how I want it to, but isn't that how life works?
Ever since I moved thought it's been really high stress and anxiety for me. The stress due to the fact of over worrying among other things. I'm hoping I find a job sooner rather then lately, and with each passing day it makes me feel more and more stressed.
Also I have some horribly depressions issues that need to be looked at by a doctor or something. It's so bad that I haven't been myself lately, and everyone around me is noticing that. I dunno what I'm going to do about that, and even if I did do something I don't think it would help. I think I might have deeper issues that even I wont bring up or touch. Lets just say my life has been all kinds of crazy and fucked up. :(
I'm also starting to think what I went to school for was a complete waste of my time!
Another big issue was what my BF did, which bother me, but I couldn't do much about. What he did was convince me to move to the new place sooner rather then later. But before this we both talked and wanted to do it together because he knew how scared I was to do this. But after I moved in and I hoped he'd follow, he didn't, and now he isn't showing up till after Dec. Made me feel like I did this for nothing, and if this was his was of a "friendly encouraging push" then he's dead wrong. It put more stress on me then anything.
Not to say though Both of my new roomy's have been nothing but supportive, it just still feels awkward. Not to mention I feel so out of place.
The biggest thing that eats at me is that if I give up it's all over. Not to mention I have no real safety net to fall back on. So I screw up this time and it's game over. :( Now that's all fine and stuff, but when every time you've tried you ended up failing, that's where it worries me. but nothing I can do about that it. That's life's harsh reality. Not much I can do but keep on trying, although with each day I feel less and less importation and that I wont be able to do it.
Oh well I guess. I'm either going to succeed or fail, and chances are it's going to not go how I want it to, but isn't that how life works?
Sorry about the boyfriend...complications. From what I heard, that wasn't so cool.
I'd say more but I'm dead-tired right now. But here for you.
Also what did you hear, or you just saying that from what you read?
I heard from a mutual friend.
I'm already on a level of hating him.
All things being equal though, I believe this does qualify as a "dick move".
Me and Fuskr had past conversations about him,
and many other things, and he chooses to associate
with that guy still. So, nothing more I can do.