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Happy (late) New Year
13 years ago
So yea, happy new year everyone. Though what's there to be happy about for me? Not that much honestly.
Been looking over some things I'd missed while I was away from Florida, and had a small breakdown. But slowly getting over that. Been also doing a lot of thinking and talking to myself. as if that would help.
I've noticed a few things that I hadn't before. And the fact I didn't notice them before makes me angry at myself. Not sure how to explain it, not many people would have noticed it either unless they were involved. It has nothing to do with what happened last year. Last year, that sounds like such a long time ago but it's not.
Anyways off that subject. For my New Year's Resolution it's the same as it has been for many many years now. Try to forget the bad things in life. as if that will work now. HA! it hasn't worked, memories are like weeds, they pop up everywhere and you can't get rid of them forever no matter how hard you try.
Been wondering lately about my life. I kinda feel like I'm not supposed to be here. It's a strange feeling and it keeps me up some nights. Between that feeling and the memories I don't sleep much. Haven't eaten much either, have no appetite. Talking doesn't help, they say that if you talk to people it helps. Well that's a lie. It doesn't help, it just makes me feel like a burden. Like I'm bugging everyone. Better to just bottle it up.
Anyways, that's it for now. I'll say again Happy New Year's everyone.