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Starved
13 years ago
I have a titanic appetite for carnal indulgence
As I grew up I was told that it made me an outcast
I kept it secret so I wouldn’t be without friends
This meant I had to be without love
Oh how I wanted to be loved
I found an artist who said she loved me
She said she would care for my appetite
She was happy until I touched her passionately
She called me a monster, but said she still loved me
She showed me how to act like a man
I wanted her hands to remain on my heart
For who could love a monster?
Clenched teeth hidden behind pursed lips
Safety words halting momentum of lust
Restraining furious and trembling muscles
I am the best lover she has ever had
I am starved for a passionate embrace
I am so hungry I ache
She winces at my intensity
“I am afraid you’ll hurt me.”
My flesh remains unfed, but she says she still loves me
I wanted her hands to remain on my heart
“You are a monster, and cannot understand matters of the heart.”
She left me for another
His hands had no claws to threaten the heart she gave him
I am an outcast with a broken heart and an unslaked appetite
I found a witch who said she loved me
She said she would care for my appetite
She was happy until I touched her softly
She called me a child, but said she still loved me
She showed me how to act like a man
I wanted her hands to remain on my heart
For who could love a child?
Teeth cutting into blood-smeared flesh
Bruises churning with blue and black pain
Hands wrapped around throats in fury
I am the best lover she has ever had
I am starved for a gentle embrace
I am so hungry I ache
She laughs at my tenderness
“I am afraid you won’t keep up with me.”
My flesh remains unfed, but she says she still loves me
I wanted her hands to remain on my heart
“You are a child, and cannot understand matters of the flesh.”
She left me for another
His hands had claws that pleased the body she gave him
I am an outcast with a broken heart and an empty stomach
I have never been loved
I have been used
Used for my body
Used for my eagerness to please
Used for the way I devour shame
My heart is a broken lantern that swings in my chest
My appetite is ravenous jaws that chew on my body
Nighttime brings tears and fantasies
Morning brings truth and shame
I am alone
No one could love an outcast
As I grew up I was told that it made me an outcast
I kept it secret so I wouldn’t be without friends
This meant I had to be without love
Oh how I wanted to be loved
I found an artist who said she loved me
She said she would care for my appetite
She was happy until I touched her passionately
She called me a monster, but said she still loved me
She showed me how to act like a man
I wanted her hands to remain on my heart
For who could love a monster?
Clenched teeth hidden behind pursed lips
Safety words halting momentum of lust
Restraining furious and trembling muscles
I am the best lover she has ever had
I am starved for a passionate embrace
I am so hungry I ache
She winces at my intensity
“I am afraid you’ll hurt me.”
My flesh remains unfed, but she says she still loves me
I wanted her hands to remain on my heart
“You are a monster, and cannot understand matters of the heart.”
She left me for another
His hands had no claws to threaten the heart she gave him
I am an outcast with a broken heart and an unslaked appetite
I found a witch who said she loved me
She said she would care for my appetite
She was happy until I touched her softly
She called me a child, but said she still loved me
She showed me how to act like a man
I wanted her hands to remain on my heart
For who could love a child?
Teeth cutting into blood-smeared flesh
Bruises churning with blue and black pain
Hands wrapped around throats in fury
I am the best lover she has ever had
I am starved for a gentle embrace
I am so hungry I ache
She laughs at my tenderness
“I am afraid you won’t keep up with me.”
My flesh remains unfed, but she says she still loves me
I wanted her hands to remain on my heart
“You are a child, and cannot understand matters of the flesh.”
She left me for another
His hands had claws that pleased the body she gave him
I am an outcast with a broken heart and an empty stomach
I have never been loved
I have been used
Used for my body
Used for my eagerness to please
Used for the way I devour shame
My heart is a broken lantern that swings in my chest
My appetite is ravenous jaws that chew on my body
Nighttime brings tears and fantasies
Morning brings truth and shame
I am alone
No one could love an outcast
