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Important update on stuff. (Lots of stuff, actually.)
12 years ago
As a first off, please don't contact 
narcotic-sprinkles to get in contact with me anymore. We are no longer together, though we do still live together because we don't have much of a choice at the moment.
I don't quite know right now if we will still be on friend terms or not, but we.. or I... or.. I don't know... but it's not really something I want to talk about much right now. It was not the best of separations, and I would like to leave it at that for now.
That said, I haven't gotten much done the last few days, and might not for the next few as well. I appologize for not being online or as attentive as I'd like to be to this account.
I would also like to officially make the announcement that after all suits on this account are handled, I will not be opening for more commissions for fursuits as a regular thing.
1. I Have not been able to pul my weight with bills lately, and have been actively searching for a regular part time/full time job over the last 2 months, which I have recently been able to get, so I will not have the days on end of 'free time' to devote to working on suits.
2. I've bitten off more than I can chew, and I realize that. Every time I try to set new deadlines for myself, I keep missing them, which is insanely discouraging, even if most of my commissioners are 'ok' with it. It's not fair to you all to have to wait this long, and I'm sorry.
3. A lot of events between the holidays and this past week have sort of made me realize I don't have as much fun making suits as I initially did. I'm not sure if this is because of a few issues with commissioners that have left a bad taste in my mouth, the fact I'm starting to get bored with it, or just as a sort of 'false symptom' from bullshit my family has been giving me for being in a F/F relationship, guilt trips I've been given since I've moved out and 'left the family', or issues related to the fact that I am now single again, or issues because I haven't been able to contribute my share to paying bills.
4. I don't feel like I can handle being a fursuit maker long term. I'm not cut out for it. While I may be able to put a pretty costume together that will hold up, I don't think I can make it for the long haul of doing this for years.
That all said, I will be contacting people about commissions and what we will be doing about them. SOME SUITS I WILL BE REFUNDING, SOME SUITS I WILL BE FINISHING, and some I don't know yet.
PLEASE WAIT FOR ME TO CONTACT YOU
PLEASE WAIT FOR ME TO CONTACT YOU
PLEASE WAIT FOR ME TO CONTACT YOU
PLEASE WAIT FOR ME TO CONTACT YOU
Pleas please PLEASE do not swamp me with notes upon notes. I need to take some time to gather information for each commission, evaluate how far I am on it, how likely I think I am to finish it, and how long it would take, possibly, for me to do refunds if I genuinely don't think I will be able to finish it.
IF your suit ends up being one recieving refunds, please understand that I need about $300 a month from my paychecks to go towards rent and bills so I have somewhere to live while working to make the money to give you your refund. Every penny I make will not be going towards refunds, but every penny over personal necessities for living will. I do not know what I will be making every month from work, since it is a new job, and I do not know if I will get the typical minimum 20 hours part time is supposed to make. Refunds will also be done on a 'I will completely refund person 1, then completely refund person 2,' so if you are farther along on the list and I have not gotten to you yet, this is probably the case.
Again,
PLEASE WAIT FOR ME TO CONTACT YOU
I will not be online again for a few days aside from checking on sending out Sprinkles and Thera to their respective people. There are a few people I need to send payments for refunds to as is, and will address those in time, but please, please, let me start this process at my own pace.
Once more, I WILL BE FINISHING SOME OF THE PROJECTS! Honestly, the suits that will most likely be refunded are the 'cheaper' suits, most likely some from the contests, and those that are generally cheaper, though there are still some that I will be finishing because they are farther along.
After I go through the lists I will be putting up another journal and asking THEN for people that I may have missed and not yet contacted to contact me, but until then, this is where I stand.
Note: There is a possibility that after a few days and I have more time to think hard on this that I will get a second wind, feel more confident, whatever and completely negate this journal, but right now, honestly, I feel like utter shit and want nothing to do with the world at all, but I feel people deserve to know what's going on. It's not really an excuse, but honestly, emotional states do affect working a lot, and somewhere under a rock feels like the best vacation spot for me right now.
narcotic-sprinkles to get in contact with me anymore. We are no longer together, though we do still live together because we don't have much of a choice at the moment.I don't quite know right now if we will still be on friend terms or not, but we.. or I... or.. I don't know... but it's not really something I want to talk about much right now. It was not the best of separations, and I would like to leave it at that for now.
That said, I haven't gotten much done the last few days, and might not for the next few as well. I appologize for not being online or as attentive as I'd like to be to this account.
I would also like to officially make the announcement that after all suits on this account are handled, I will not be opening for more commissions for fursuits as a regular thing.
1. I Have not been able to pul my weight with bills lately, and have been actively searching for a regular part time/full time job over the last 2 months, which I have recently been able to get, so I will not have the days on end of 'free time' to devote to working on suits.
2. I've bitten off more than I can chew, and I realize that. Every time I try to set new deadlines for myself, I keep missing them, which is insanely discouraging, even if most of my commissioners are 'ok' with it. It's not fair to you all to have to wait this long, and I'm sorry.
3. A lot of events between the holidays and this past week have sort of made me realize I don't have as much fun making suits as I initially did. I'm not sure if this is because of a few issues with commissioners that have left a bad taste in my mouth, the fact I'm starting to get bored with it, or just as a sort of 'false symptom' from bullshit my family has been giving me for being in a F/F relationship, guilt trips I've been given since I've moved out and 'left the family', or issues related to the fact that I am now single again, or issues because I haven't been able to contribute my share to paying bills.
4. I don't feel like I can handle being a fursuit maker long term. I'm not cut out for it. While I may be able to put a pretty costume together that will hold up, I don't think I can make it for the long haul of doing this for years.
That all said, I will be contacting people about commissions and what we will be doing about them. SOME SUITS I WILL BE REFUNDING, SOME SUITS I WILL BE FINISHING, and some I don't know yet.
PLEASE WAIT FOR ME TO CONTACT YOU
PLEASE WAIT FOR ME TO CONTACT YOU
PLEASE WAIT FOR ME TO CONTACT YOU
PLEASE WAIT FOR ME TO CONTACT YOU
Pleas please PLEASE do not swamp me with notes upon notes. I need to take some time to gather information for each commission, evaluate how far I am on it, how likely I think I am to finish it, and how long it would take, possibly, for me to do refunds if I genuinely don't think I will be able to finish it.
IF your suit ends up being one recieving refunds, please understand that I need about $300 a month from my paychecks to go towards rent and bills so I have somewhere to live while working to make the money to give you your refund. Every penny I make will not be going towards refunds, but every penny over personal necessities for living will. I do not know what I will be making every month from work, since it is a new job, and I do not know if I will get the typical minimum 20 hours part time is supposed to make. Refunds will also be done on a 'I will completely refund person 1, then completely refund person 2,' so if you are farther along on the list and I have not gotten to you yet, this is probably the case.
Again,
PLEASE WAIT FOR ME TO CONTACT YOU
I will not be online again for a few days aside from checking on sending out Sprinkles and Thera to their respective people. There are a few people I need to send payments for refunds to as is, and will address those in time, but please, please, let me start this process at my own pace.
Once more, I WILL BE FINISHING SOME OF THE PROJECTS! Honestly, the suits that will most likely be refunded are the 'cheaper' suits, most likely some from the contests, and those that are generally cheaper, though there are still some that I will be finishing because they are farther along.
After I go through the lists I will be putting up another journal and asking THEN for people that I may have missed and not yet contacted to contact me, but until then, this is where I stand.
Note: There is a possibility that after a few days and I have more time to think hard on this that I will get a second wind, feel more confident, whatever and completely negate this journal, but right now, honestly, I feel like utter shit and want nothing to do with the world at all, but I feel people deserve to know what's going on. It's not really an excuse, but honestly, emotional states do affect working a lot, and somewhere under a rock feels like the best vacation spot for me right now.
Just remember that there are people that are there for you, which includes me.
If you ever have any problems, you can always come to me and I will try my best to help.
Even if you end up dropping my commission I will try my best to help you out with any money issues or anything, the best I can.
It might not mean much, but just know that I care and I consider you a great friend < 3
Just get some rest, and I hope you feel better soon
If you need anything from me, just ask
Things'll get better.
I read your last journal about the house issues if i remembered. I wasnt on the top of the list and not really in a hurry.
I make suit parts but i only made about 2-3 suits and alot of parts and i understand. At first it was like "yeah im gonna be awesome make lots-o-money" No...actually i lost money cause i forgot to add tiney things like string and joanns raising prices and the coupons havent come into date adn vice verca >.>
After this small batch im thinking about ONLY working on my own suit for FCN and then maybe MAYBE doing more suits but will be making them on my time.
Also cant hurt after all this to make premade suits.
draw a idea you would like to make, have people bid on it. So if no one bids the suit isnt made...no lost
This way its made to there size too haha!
Might help you make more room from scraps and hopefully more money.
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i ordered some heads if that helps you remember me
haha, if it helps you at all in thinking threw things. I would really only want the cat foam head done and the eyes that got lost in the mail cause Christmas eats things... that was my fault having you send them at such a time >.> ugh
Take a few days off, consider your options and know that in a few months or a year or two, it won't be such a big deal! I'm not cut out to be a full time artist but it's still fun to make art and take commissions when the mood hits me. You don't have to "go pro" to be a good suit maker. If you need more funds to actually cover costs or more time to finish I think most everyone understands and those who don't can still be dealt with. You have really creative ideas and I'd hate to see you totally burn out on suits, but I'd rather you be not insane over this kind of thing :3
Also, I'm a former psych major and I like when people bitch at me over their issues and being reassuring if you need an ear to listen. Take it easy and don't stress out too much! I waited about a year + to receive an already made suit that just didn't have shipping fundage, so this isn't really much of a wait, ha ha! You're doing fine and it will all work out eventually!
You seem like the person who likes planning so I can see why these past few months, being so crazy, would really mess with your head.
I feel as though you need to take a little break and just work on something for yourself until you figure out exactly what you want to do from this point on. I have faith that you'll bounce back from whatever this is and just move forward to whatever that may be. Everything will work out for you; things always have a way of working themselves out! Even if you do decide not to continue working/making custom fursuits, it was, at one point something you enjoyed just not at this high level of stress... obviously. XD
I never got to commission you (such a shame!) but I wish you the best of luck with the future. They say when one door closes, another opens and it's true. Sometimes we need to suffer and endure the ending of things to get to the next things which are much better. Gods, I can't even count the times this has happened to me. I also know that feeling of everything just crashing down on you and things will never be the same (they won't) or ever get better (they will).
You're an incredibly talented person and whether you decide to stick with suits or move on to bigger and better things, I know you'll have lots of success in your future. I just hope you keep on sharing it with us :)