I just feel so... Unnecessary. All I'm doing is coasting through life, barely even really living. I don't like it, but I have absolutely no motivation to change it. It's kind of like there's just no point to my life and like it's just going to hit a dead end. I never seem to be good enough at anything other than sitting and doing nothing. What's the point to all of this if nothing at all happens that is really fucking fantastic. I just... Don't know. Maybe it's just a bout of depression or something, but I've been pretty non-depressed for a long while. But I've also felt this way for a long while. Like there is just absolutely no point to my life and that nothing fantastic will ever come out of it. I'm just running on a hamster wheel and not getting anywhere. My life just feels stagnant and that I don't have the slightest clue what to do about it. Everyone around me is so happy, living their life and having their intimate relationships, and I just feel like I bring that down. No matter how much they tell me I don't, or how awesome I am, I just don't fully believe them. After all, I'm always passed up for my friends, because my friends are all outgoing, sexually aware, and proportionate. Then I'm there, shy, naive, innocent and pear-shaped. Never good enough, hopelessly pointless, lost in the woods and I can't see a clear path to change that..... But I'm rambling, I suppose. Just needed to get this out.