I'm sure not many people know, but lately I have been really struggling with depression a bit. I'm having extreme difficulty with school, and feel inadequate to even attend. My car has been giving me more problems, for probably the 50th time in almost the two years I have had it. I absolutely and utterly hate my job, and every morning I wake up dreading and counting down the minutes to when I have to showmy sorry ass to my shitty job.

I never cry in front of my parents, and today my mom came in and saw I was crying at my desk because I was literally about to quit on my computer programming homework and just take the 0. She asked me what was wrong and I told her "This is all extremely overwhelming" and told her how difficult school is for me. She literally walked out of my room without saying a word.

You know, it would be nice to know my parents worry about me a bit, especially since I've had extremely unpleasant thoughts about my life. A little support would be nice, but usually I don't talk to them about my struggles, and today when I finally opened up a little, one of them had absolutely nothing to say. The other would probably just tell me I'm not trying hard.

I've opened up to my boyfriend about it, but I feel he doesn't grasp the seriousness of how honestly deep my depression is right now. I chose not to really tell many of my friends because I don't really find a point, which has led me to post this here, because the recent actions of my mother have shocked me so badly I was gasping for air for a minute or two while trying not to cry even more.

Which makes me think, I honestly don't know what to do anymore....