I love being in NY and with family, but I miss my boyfriend and one of my best friends something wicked. Falling into a depression, which I knew I was going to do... but I should still be able to get everyone's sketches done this week. UPS is saying my big computer will be here on Friday and I have until then to try and find a work table big enough for the computer and my sewing machine.

I wish I could lay down and have a good cry. Being single after 3 years of love is hard. I still love him, I think I always will, and in some ways when you really fall in love the first time it never really goes away.

Love is like malaria, once it gets under your skin its there forever and you never know when its gonna rear up and make itself known. I feel that way now, I'll go all day and be fine, then one song or word from someone and I'll feel so unbearably sad I just want to cry.

Needless to say, Im going to drown myself in my commission work and school work... and look for a full time job and a car so Im not trapped at home so much.