Last night I stayed up shaking in extreme pain from my wisdom teeth long overdue for removal. I first want to say thanks to my Fluffy, Stephin and Midnight for being there for me to give me hope and pretty much keeping me from taking matters into my own hands.

Been doing some research about it to see what I can do to get the fuckers out. My hands a pretty much tied as of right now.

I first need to try to get insurance, they probably will NOT pay for it all so its only a start.
2. I need to find a job, this wont be easy I've been trying for years, with this much pain afflicting me I don't even know if I can handle a job....but I have to there really isn't any other way.
3. I need surgery on my mouth to get these four wisdom teeth pulled as soon as fucking possible!!!! I have three other wisdom teeth around the corner for rotting like their predecessor and I just don't know if I will be strong enough to take two of these pains at once, let alone four.

So I truly am on my own here,.....
Mom and Dad essentially told me to suck it up. They wont drive me to look for work, they tell me to walk MILES back and forth into town EVERY day to apply for jobs. They say that they cant afford gas which is a load of bullshit mom goes out nearly 3-10 times a week now to sell shit to friends on facebook for literally like 5-10 sometimes just to trade like two movies for a fucking pocket book.

I am sure you guys want to help and the love is appreciated, but I highly doubt anyone I know could ever afford 1800$ to take care of this and I wont ask for help from anyone it'll probably never happen, but on the one and a million chance someone does have the ability and the willing to do such a need they're welcome to help I would do just about anything to get these things out of my mouth and that says a lot.

I'm litterally facing my worst fears here, I have a drastic phobia for pain and even the slightest pinch will keep me from doing something that needs to be done.

Please don't go thinking I'm begging for help, I know it may sound as such but Its not the case I know that's too unrealistic a thought to ever expect something like that to work, I am merely expressing my emotions right now so the pain doesn't drive me insane.