So I had a dream where I was given the opportunity to change from a fox to a different animal, and I chose a raccoon.

I've toyed around with several raccoon personas online in a "passive" role playing sense, but now I'm feeling conflicted; have I been wrong this whole time, and just dismiss the fact that I had identified myself otherwise for the last eight years? Was that all just baloney?

Once upon a time I used to actually cry because I didn't have the anatomy I felt like I ought to have, like I was fucking made wrong; like transgendered except to an extreme and an unachievable reality. I'd spend my whole day on my bed bawling my damn eyes out.

Haven't really felt that way again since using anti-depressants, but I plan to go talk to my psychologist again about that sometime in the next few months.

I feel that identifying as something else would just invalidate my previous issues with my body. I don't know what to do.