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Hunting a Rampant Mindbeast
12 years ago
This probably the weirdest thing I'm going to do in a while
And for those wondering, why yes I am alive!
Just not in the art kind of mood, or when I do start drawing everything looks like crap so I decided to save paper and not draw anymore.
My life has kind of gotten to that point where I literally can't do anything.
There is nothing with-in a 5-Mile radius of my house,
they're working on the major street in front of my housing place, so walking to GameStop or Walmart isn't happening because the crosswalks are temporary out of commission
and no chance in hell I am going to guess when to go with a 3-lane (bothsides) street.
I feel the relationship I'm in at the moment is shaky, because there is nothing I can talk about anymore, we don't go on calls, or even webcam nearly as much as we used... actually pretty close to none at all...;
I have no real friends in the state anymore;
I hear people go off and do things, I get jealous, then insanely lonely because I can't do anything;
I feel the little wheels in my head turning, but their concentration not on the right things.
The State I live in is in a major drought, the forests to the north of me have about 3 to 4 wildfires, and all it takes it one gust of wind and I get cloud of smoke and ash in the City.
Nothing is really binding me to this state anymore besides the fact that I am dead broke, with no transportation, and what's keeping my Anxiety from going completely out of control is already established here...
On the Bright Side: I bought a fern. Bought it from Wal-Mart, didn't look super healthy when I bought it, and some how I nursed up to growing speeds.
Bought a One-Day Pass to ACE
Vixietrix is probably one of the most amazing friends out there, and she knows why :P
Vixietrix
Unfortunately I ca not say much about your possible shaky relationship. Could it be just the act of being busy and the summer starting soon? Or possibly are you having the same issues you had previously that maybe you are pushing people away? I'm sorry to hear you don't have any real friends in your area. What about trying to find a local community page/forum near you?
Congratulations on the fern, I can never bring a plant back to life when bought from walmart :/
So i give you proper there on that one.
As for ACE... .-. I don't know which of the millions of "ace" it is so I'm not sure which one you mean >_>
It's just a matter of re-potting it and watering it properly :D
as for the ACE, it's the local Comic Expo, which will be my first Convention I've ever been to.
As for the relationship thing, it probably just is the Summer starting, I over-think things too much which causes too many issues.
Ahhhhhhhhhh. that sounds more fun then a hardware store XD
I'm honestly sure that is whats going on. If your still dating the person you were when we spoke last. Then I am honestly sure that is the only issue going on there.
I guess I just have a green thumb, lol.And yes, I am still dating her.
But where I lost my life, she gained one.
Because she did, I lost all my real life friends because they decided I was using them.
When I offered to do something they refused and said it was fine
Then the decided they needed a good excuse to get rid of me because of "uncertianty," or rather my issues.
She on the other hand no friends, then sudden gained a surge of them xD
Also WHY IS ALL YOUR TEXT CENTRED AAHHHHH
Why isn't my texted Centered?'-'