strangly enough my depression has come back to me, i both hate and love the way it feels now a days...and sadly its the kind that cant really just be fixed over night my dreams haunt me with my memories of him *sigh* and the more i keep going on the harder it is for me to keep my heart from hurting it feels like no matter how hard i try its all in vain. i want him be i have to wait and see this fucking place with so many and all of there happiness...and its getting to me how i cant have mine i mean whats the point is trying if all i get is shit it just keeps getting harder and harder i'm not sure how much more or how much more i can take...