This is not excuses, this is not me apologizing. This is me explaining what has happened to bring things to the tipping point over the past couple days.
I could feel it happening for the past couple weeks, at least, and my level of aggravation was rising in regards to certain people. This past week, however, was the roughest and finally put me over the edge into drastic action that... while perhaps unwise, it was not something I regret doing in the least.

First of all, it was a becoming a daily occurance that I would not even be asked if I wanted to play any games with anyone until I signed into a game and discovered all my friends already playing. They would mostly all say they loved playing with me, and even after the first, and second, and third time of pointing out the least they could do was invite me along, it carried on the same way. Every friggin day.
Then the much harder point to put into words, and this has lasted a fair bit longer than just these past couple weeks, but someone close and beloved seems to, in my eyes, have grown bored of me in regards to RP, an activity I found highly enjoyable every time it happened. Heck, I used to LOVE RPing, but over the past few months my own interest has waned as I have been failing to really lose myself in my character and get into an involved, descriptive RP at all, anywhere. Well, for the past little while, I almost feel like this person is outright avoiding RP with me, and actively RPing with pretty much anyone else. When it happened right in front of my very eyes last night, the straw was placed that broke the back.

Yes, I can be vindictive. Yes, I can be petty, and I AM petty. That is exactly why I lashed out and proceeded to spam the crap out of the RPP chatroom, in hopes to ruin the moods of friends and ruin the RP they had going, that I was petty and jealous over. That is exactly why I didn't bother offering to stream Tomb Raider for anyone today, and rushed through the game to finish it so that people that enjoy watching streams WOULDNT get to see it.

What is to come, though? Fuck people. If people want to have me around, they can ask me to be around. I wont be inviting anyone to anything I do, games or streams or any such thing, for a while. You wanna play with me, be it RP or games, you want me to stream a game for you that Im playing, then you can come and ask me, or invite me to a game, because Im done feeling left out. Ill be my own person with my own aims and keep to myself unless otherwise wanted. And if you dont want me, then you can do your own thing, too.