But it's going to take such a long time!

I think I forget how stressed out I get about things in general, and I also forget that I forget my stress and then when I get overly emotional or short-tempered I blame it on the wrong things. It's definitely not that the things going on in my life are bad at all, I've just accepted that I'm a high-stress, obsessively thinking person and I need to keep that in mind when making decisions. I should also start writing out what I need/want to do instead of keeping it in my head because I definitely don't have an organized mind.

I think excessive amounts of work are bothering me. Not working in general, I honestly really like working but when I have to put off picking up my medicine for two days because I'm exhausted ehhhhhhh. It's mainly just Six Flags, I think this year will be it for that. They're so demanding physically and mentally, and at the end of the day it doesn't feel rewarding. Besides making kids' days or weeks I don't feel like I'm accumulating a whole lot in return. When I work with animals I feel a lot more satisfied emotionally and like my potentially long hours were for something. I also feel like I only see my family when I come home and go to bed, and I talk to my mom over text more than I do in person which was never the case before. Not really a fan of that! For someone that's always been really close with their mom, that kind of change is unfavorable. Especially when you're trading it for a dramatic work environment and unnecessary physical strain for minimum wage. I have I think three more weeks before I'll be done so I'm just reflecting really and it's not worth changing my schedule in that short of a time span.

I'm really enjoying where my life is going, though! Even though an earwig either pinched or bite my fracking arm really hard this morning. I could have done without that.