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When a fun hobby is no longer fun
17 years ago
I play SL, not a unique thing for folks online these days. Premier virtual world, shared construction tools, lots of active users.
I've been in SL for 4 years, minus a 6 month hiatus when I was last this burned out.
What do I do in SL... I administer a sim...
I say it's a group thing but I feel like I'm the only one who says it...
When stuff goes right, folks have fun, people hang out, we get activity which is meaningless so long as the sim's able to stay ours for another 10 days or more...
When stuff goes wrong, I get yelled at, screamed at, have to break up fights, become the bringer of bad news, the bearer of bad news, and that guy attacking you, even though I've come down on the other guy twice as hard.
I've been running a sim to the best of my abilities for months, it's tiring, it wears me thin because I'm always dealing with another issue, trying to figure out how to make person A get along with person B...
I wear myself thin, to the point where I can't even deal with people, can't even deal with myself... and still I manage... and still I work...
People yell, things go boom, and still I work...
When I do get worn out so much that I can't go on, problems seem to just get worse... and I have to repair parts of the place I love... because someone got mad at me for trying to look out for that place...
Even with help from someone who's done the same stuff for 3 years, I end up having issues...
partially because he's not used to not being the one in charge...
partially because I don't run things like I'm the only one in charge....
I'm starting to wonder why I continue, why I wear myself thin, why I now have health issues, stress... and have to repair the place I love yet again... -.-
I've been in SL for 4 years, minus a 6 month hiatus when I was last this burned out.
What do I do in SL... I administer a sim...
I say it's a group thing but I feel like I'm the only one who says it...
When stuff goes right, folks have fun, people hang out, we get activity which is meaningless so long as the sim's able to stay ours for another 10 days or more...
When stuff goes wrong, I get yelled at, screamed at, have to break up fights, become the bringer of bad news, the bearer of bad news, and that guy attacking you, even though I've come down on the other guy twice as hard.
I've been running a sim to the best of my abilities for months, it's tiring, it wears me thin because I'm always dealing with another issue, trying to figure out how to make person A get along with person B...
I wear myself thin, to the point where I can't even deal with people, can't even deal with myself... and still I manage... and still I work...
People yell, things go boom, and still I work...
When I do get worn out so much that I can't go on, problems seem to just get worse... and I have to repair parts of the place I love... because someone got mad at me for trying to look out for that place...
Even with help from someone who's done the same stuff for 3 years, I end up having issues...
partially because he's not used to not being the one in charge...
partially because I don't run things like I'm the only one in charge....
I'm starting to wonder why I continue, why I wear myself thin, why I now have health issues, stress... and have to repair the place I love yet again... -.-
Even if you have help and still have issues I believe that not running away from the issues is a good idea but to figure them out and get then resolved.
Have some time to yourself where you can just be you and you have no worries to deal with. I dont know the reason why you continue But Im supporting you as much as I can Ice. Dont stress over it and dont let it control your health. its not good for you. like you said its bad for your health so maybe if you have others to help you out things might losen up for your health and stress levels.