so i finally got everything working again. but the downside is this minuscule act was the catalyst to trigger the next stage of my depression. i cry uncontrollably at random times even when i am happy, the stress makes me clench my fists aswell so hard i am afaid sometimes if i am not careful i will draw blood. i saw the doctor today about it and he is going to set me up with a psychiatrist and that i might be bi-polar.... yay for that X3. so that's here i am at right now for those who care and are interested