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Another Post about Life
8 years ago
its a bit of a long one but i feel i need to put feelings to words
i think about about life quite alot. many people close to me know this. but not just my own but all of it. the ebb and flow. the intricate webs of coincidence and happenstance that lead us to day and all days to come. i would say i have come to any sort of epiphany on life or anything though several i have had in the past. but i often wonder things. the main question i end up asking myself in any given question is why. from big details to small. i must understand it all. and for the most part i do if i am not lost in my own thoughts that stray and focus on the most random of details.
i think at this stage in our evolution we are still discovering ourselves. children, as much as we are, without guidance, left to find our own way in the vast darkness and cruel stage we were given the gift of existence in. billions upon billions of worlds in the sky and for all our searching, the amount we have seen thus far, only one even resembles us. as far as we know we are alone. and of course that is not the case it is proposterous to think so. but for the sake of this argument, if there even is one, that we are. this is what we have chosen to be. collective as a whole. with our conformity, apathy, indifference. this now as we are is how we chose to be. if life ended now how we are at this moment is how we will always be remembered if at all. the tinkle of a star to some far off planet unbenounced to our own destruction. i mean why would anyone, who would. do we care of the ants beneath our feet and their day to days?
social beings that we are the thought of loneliness i think in any form has driven the collective sanity of us to its individualist state. though binary we are we exist in a state of one or the other. 1 or 0, yes or no, we cannot comprehend the state of 2 or even the 1.5. it is beyond us. more evident is our geo political arena. old grudges and old people playing with toys and imaginary things thinking they control anything but lie to themselves and others they are anything more than human, special, powerful. and all this in an effort to be noticed or remembered. to control what we cannot which we have never and never be in a position to be in.
we go through life, floating, being what we think will make us happy in an environment we developed and continue to create for ourselves. we are our own worst enemy. a self balancing equation always seeking the greater of the two halves. darkness cannot exist without the light and evil cannot exist without good. if evil did not exist then the worst of the good would just be the new evil. its how we think, still binary, 1 or 0. with me or against me. and we always seek for the withs never the withouts. we turn blind eyes and feign concern to those. our hearts and minds are not big enough. some do but a rairty amongst us they always are and always silenced by the other half.
we are a species out of balance and out of synch with each other. sectioning ourselves off in bubbles of existence that we fill with things we think will make us happy. whether it be people or actual stuff or good deeds but we always seek to fill that cup and keep that bubble closed to a realm we can understand and manipulate never factoring in how it effects the bubbles around us. engulfing each other and snuffing other out.
we do this in crippling fear of permanency. to make that life matter to someone if only to themselves but it is always for the sake of others. we all see each other. the aspiration to be more, something greater is within all of us. but we are too young. too naive babes singing i'm a big boy now. we all do it, we all think this way but too little are those who are self aware of it. and in those who cannot seek answers in anyway and more often the easiest way. and so devouted to these thoughts we become it is the only truth you know that anything else is poor falicy and reason is abandoned for hope and faith that what you have revelated whether on your own or by others that it to is THE truth of all things and give meaning to what really is a meaningless existence.
i am derailing myself. but the point is we do all these things to justify an existence we already in a grander scale is pointless as is most of what we do. and its how we will continue to live because that is how we always have and into the ground with all the others that came before us go we shall.
life. when we choose to end it we claim to take it but from who. who does it belong to really? id it ourselves? we would like to think so but no if that were true then we would pass unmourned. we dont belong to ourselves we belong to the everyone else and the universe itself. that life given was given not without purpose, just another cog in the wheel of time and concequence all doing what we were meant to do and say and think. the illusion of choice in a self perpetuating organism. we are no more a part of a whole as a cell is apart of a body.
these things people cannot grasp or realize boggles me. because in the whole fo creation and time itself. how we are now and and choose to be. this is the best we can do. disappointing really that if you looked at humanity as a single entity, what would that person look like? how old would you think that person is? i know what i see but i wonder do others see the same.
and we all point fingers and shift blame or accept that it is what it is because it is. yet if humanity came to together, achieved together, understood together. became a unified body and mind for greatness that we all seek at on point or another in our lives. what then would we look like? if we died now would we be proud? i know i couldn't reflect on the whole of human history and say that. the good certainly doesn't extinguish the permanent bad that looms over us all.
even now these words even had been spoken aloud to the masses in a grand arena would fall deaf to the grip that complacency and comfort had brought. fear of loss, the loss required to reshape the very fabric in which we think and act will ultimately be our downfall. not today or tomorrow but at some point. nothing in life lasts ever. not one thing. even us in our splendor will fall to arrogance and ignorance.
the human race has a funny way of acting. it can see the problem but choose not to do anything tangeable about it til its is too late. its something that always bothered me that can only operate in hindsight. reflections of the past mirrored in the present in a cyclical cycle of self perpetuated agony and torment casting itself upon self and others. constantly fluxuating singluar actions effecting the whole of a being we are apart of that lives and breathes apart from us in a place lucky enough cosmically to even allow me to type all this out. grammatically inaccurate and all.
that we have come so close to self annihilation so many times before, even in most of our life times. this rare gift, as our current evidence would suggest. we take for utter granted as a right and not the priviledge it is. all it would take is a big enough object to fly into our path and disrupt our rotation around the ball of gas in an endless void and that is it. no more anything. no more us. nor more children. no more things. just nothing and no one to remember. so in the end my fellow humans...
was any of this worth it? in the grandest of schemes what have we accomplished or amounted to? from what ican see its nothing. not even to ourselves.
a great shift in conciousness is happening. that we are stopping the covetting of things for small joys and pleasures that are as fleeting as life itself. as a species we have the power if commrodary is involved, to leave our mark on the history of creation itself and exclaim to the universe we are here and you are not alone. and yet we chose to be less. we choose to be less. and in the end we must find ourselves saying, everyone one of us, from the youngest child able to grasp its own existence, the oldest man waiting for his to end. "i choose to be less." and that is where we are... less. less than we could ever have been or ever could be because we could not find it within ourselves to even try to be more.
what we are now is what we shall always be if we dont do it now. why wait for the next one to do it when we oursleves have the power to do it now. we be the ones that reshape and gave us a future. but not so single mindedly as just us but all that come after so that is what we can be remembered for instead of this.
but as i said deaf ears with a voice lost in an ocean of others who find better uses of their times to talk about their cats or what they ate. i leave this horrible mess here for someone to see and maybe inspire to do more than any of us could ever dare to dream. to be more than we were unwilling or incapable of being. if our tale does not run its course to its inevitable end before then. we will do to ourselves way before any natural event can claim us at the rate we are proceeding.
things always change and its about time so should we.
i think about about life quite alot. many people close to me know this. but not just my own but all of it. the ebb and flow. the intricate webs of coincidence and happenstance that lead us to day and all days to come. i would say i have come to any sort of epiphany on life or anything though several i have had in the past. but i often wonder things. the main question i end up asking myself in any given question is why. from big details to small. i must understand it all. and for the most part i do if i am not lost in my own thoughts that stray and focus on the most random of details.
i think at this stage in our evolution we are still discovering ourselves. children, as much as we are, without guidance, left to find our own way in the vast darkness and cruel stage we were given the gift of existence in. billions upon billions of worlds in the sky and for all our searching, the amount we have seen thus far, only one even resembles us. as far as we know we are alone. and of course that is not the case it is proposterous to think so. but for the sake of this argument, if there even is one, that we are. this is what we have chosen to be. collective as a whole. with our conformity, apathy, indifference. this now as we are is how we chose to be. if life ended now how we are at this moment is how we will always be remembered if at all. the tinkle of a star to some far off planet unbenounced to our own destruction. i mean why would anyone, who would. do we care of the ants beneath our feet and their day to days?
social beings that we are the thought of loneliness i think in any form has driven the collective sanity of us to its individualist state. though binary we are we exist in a state of one or the other. 1 or 0, yes or no, we cannot comprehend the state of 2 or even the 1.5. it is beyond us. more evident is our geo political arena. old grudges and old people playing with toys and imaginary things thinking they control anything but lie to themselves and others they are anything more than human, special, powerful. and all this in an effort to be noticed or remembered. to control what we cannot which we have never and never be in a position to be in.
we go through life, floating, being what we think will make us happy in an environment we developed and continue to create for ourselves. we are our own worst enemy. a self balancing equation always seeking the greater of the two halves. darkness cannot exist without the light and evil cannot exist without good. if evil did not exist then the worst of the good would just be the new evil. its how we think, still binary, 1 or 0. with me or against me. and we always seek for the withs never the withouts. we turn blind eyes and feign concern to those. our hearts and minds are not big enough. some do but a rairty amongst us they always are and always silenced by the other half.
we are a species out of balance and out of synch with each other. sectioning ourselves off in bubbles of existence that we fill with things we think will make us happy. whether it be people or actual stuff or good deeds but we always seek to fill that cup and keep that bubble closed to a realm we can understand and manipulate never factoring in how it effects the bubbles around us. engulfing each other and snuffing other out.
we do this in crippling fear of permanency. to make that life matter to someone if only to themselves but it is always for the sake of others. we all see each other. the aspiration to be more, something greater is within all of us. but we are too young. too naive babes singing i'm a big boy now. we all do it, we all think this way but too little are those who are self aware of it. and in those who cannot seek answers in anyway and more often the easiest way. and so devouted to these thoughts we become it is the only truth you know that anything else is poor falicy and reason is abandoned for hope and faith that what you have revelated whether on your own or by others that it to is THE truth of all things and give meaning to what really is a meaningless existence.
i am derailing myself. but the point is we do all these things to justify an existence we already in a grander scale is pointless as is most of what we do. and its how we will continue to live because that is how we always have and into the ground with all the others that came before us go we shall.
life. when we choose to end it we claim to take it but from who. who does it belong to really? id it ourselves? we would like to think so but no if that were true then we would pass unmourned. we dont belong to ourselves we belong to the everyone else and the universe itself. that life given was given not without purpose, just another cog in the wheel of time and concequence all doing what we were meant to do and say and think. the illusion of choice in a self perpetuating organism. we are no more a part of a whole as a cell is apart of a body.
these things people cannot grasp or realize boggles me. because in the whole fo creation and time itself. how we are now and and choose to be. this is the best we can do. disappointing really that if you looked at humanity as a single entity, what would that person look like? how old would you think that person is? i know what i see but i wonder do others see the same.
and we all point fingers and shift blame or accept that it is what it is because it is. yet if humanity came to together, achieved together, understood together. became a unified body and mind for greatness that we all seek at on point or another in our lives. what then would we look like? if we died now would we be proud? i know i couldn't reflect on the whole of human history and say that. the good certainly doesn't extinguish the permanent bad that looms over us all.
even now these words even had been spoken aloud to the masses in a grand arena would fall deaf to the grip that complacency and comfort had brought. fear of loss, the loss required to reshape the very fabric in which we think and act will ultimately be our downfall. not today or tomorrow but at some point. nothing in life lasts ever. not one thing. even us in our splendor will fall to arrogance and ignorance.
the human race has a funny way of acting. it can see the problem but choose not to do anything tangeable about it til its is too late. its something that always bothered me that can only operate in hindsight. reflections of the past mirrored in the present in a cyclical cycle of self perpetuated agony and torment casting itself upon self and others. constantly fluxuating singluar actions effecting the whole of a being we are apart of that lives and breathes apart from us in a place lucky enough cosmically to even allow me to type all this out. grammatically inaccurate and all.
that we have come so close to self annihilation so many times before, even in most of our life times. this rare gift, as our current evidence would suggest. we take for utter granted as a right and not the priviledge it is. all it would take is a big enough object to fly into our path and disrupt our rotation around the ball of gas in an endless void and that is it. no more anything. no more us. nor more children. no more things. just nothing and no one to remember. so in the end my fellow humans...
was any of this worth it? in the grandest of schemes what have we accomplished or amounted to? from what ican see its nothing. not even to ourselves.
a great shift in conciousness is happening. that we are stopping the covetting of things for small joys and pleasures that are as fleeting as life itself. as a species we have the power if commrodary is involved, to leave our mark on the history of creation itself and exclaim to the universe we are here and you are not alone. and yet we chose to be less. we choose to be less. and in the end we must find ourselves saying, everyone one of us, from the youngest child able to grasp its own existence, the oldest man waiting for his to end. "i choose to be less." and that is where we are... less. less than we could ever have been or ever could be because we could not find it within ourselves to even try to be more.
what we are now is what we shall always be if we dont do it now. why wait for the next one to do it when we oursleves have the power to do it now. we be the ones that reshape and gave us a future. but not so single mindedly as just us but all that come after so that is what we can be remembered for instead of this.
but as i said deaf ears with a voice lost in an ocean of others who find better uses of their times to talk about their cats or what they ate. i leave this horrible mess here for someone to see and maybe inspire to do more than any of us could ever dare to dream. to be more than we were unwilling or incapable of being. if our tale does not run its course to its inevitable end before then. we will do to ourselves way before any natural event can claim us at the rate we are proceeding.
things always change and its about time so should we.
The purpose of life? Whatever you want it to be. You are a sentient, cognitive, and conscious being with physical capabilities.
You decide what your objectives are for this short human lifespan. You decide to survive and complete those objectives.
Human systems of existence and survival are in place. You make money, you purchase food, you survive. If you want to not be part of these existing systems, then I recommend learning how to cultivate your own food for survival.
If you are intelligent, then your primary objective should be survival. If a bus is heading strait for you, then you will most likely move - to survive.
If you are intelligent, then you would seek for ways to survive beyond your physical human shell. Religion-Morality - Attempting to contact higher powers - are paths to ensure your survival. Surely there are not BILLIONS of brainwashed people following these religions - I think they have received messages and instructions from their higher powers.
Enjoy this human life then die, that is my perspective. I've determined and set my objectives to complete for this short life span, I recommend you do the same.