So. Started dating. Met a cute vegan girl. Got drunk and still somehow made a good enough impression that when I asked her out several days later she said yes. Now? I'm three dates in and I realize something: I am so damnably and horribly broken.

I can't tell what she's thinking, or how to respond to her, or what if any "signals" I may be receiving, or whether I should even trust myself to interpret what signs I may be receiving. I can't tell if I'm just trying to subconsciously push her in to the huge f-ing hole I have in my life and then have expectations of emotional intimacy that used to be there. And it's not just that this is the first "first date" scenario i've had in 14 years; it's more like i'm genuinely no longer capable of understanding another person outside of my own imagination / expectations / experience. This is leading to misinterpretations of signals and forcing of social / dating norms just to see what sticks and i still can't feel a damn thing.

Just what the hell is wrong with me? And what should I do for her?

Do I say "hey sorry, you're wonderful, beautiful, fun and crazy and everything a guy could want but I'm too emotionally broken to figure out how to connect with you and I may not get better anytime soon, if ever, and you may want to move on before I make another dating faux pas just to see if we can get anything to stick. wanna be friends?"