in case anyone was wondering where i have been for the past couple days, i have been in montreal (still am) becasue my grandpa of 88 years old is dying. he has pretty much given up on life and said he didn't want to live anymore. he comes from a holland where euthenasia is legal there and wanted to that here but no dice. so they took out his IV and everything and is only been given morphine. so he is slowly and painlessly dying for the past couple days. we are staying for the funeral for when he passes.... idk when i will return home but he should be gone anyday now. the worst part for me is the waiting. i hate the thought of him dying slowly by choice. but i can't do anything but wait as my family takes turns going back and forth to the hospital.... anyway that's what's going on in my life and what i'm up to. needless to say without a large degree of stress from that and the fact the stress from certain people in my life continue to give me if not worse... i'm just hoping this will all be over soon....