Hiyo,

Yes, I have seemingly vanished. If you knew me at all, you knew what I had been putting into motion. I am safe now. Me and are still housemates. I'm honestly too scared to be alone. I'm mostly over some of my past, but I sleep with a hunting knife in my hand, beneath my pillow each night. I sometimes have nightmares he will come for me.

A lot of changes happened while I was gone, Some good, some bad...like my living arrangements, my safety and wellbeing is way better now. I've dated, fallen in love and been crushed and broken. I've had the realization that...I would prefer a text based relationship. I do not want to see anyone in person, to hear their voice...just...rp based I suppose. I've been hurt way too much and it makes me crazy, I want to hurt them back...differently, but I don't. Maybe someday the relationship I want will evolve into something physical. Maybe not. I have also learned that I'm now way past legally blind. They officially 'stop' at 20/200 and can't go past but, guess what? My supah speshul eyes are a whopping 30/800. So I get cane training and will be on a list for a guide dog. Mush has been dead a while. I miss my little snakey, maybe, when I am over the heartbreak, I will love another scaly little cutie.

Things change, Ceri is here for me, always. I love my sis. ( She's my bestie, my 'sistah from another mother' if you will. )

Things have changed so much, I feel I need a new face. I've not yet decided, but I will be something...mixed again, most likely. I'll still draw the old Yoska from time to time, just for nostalgia's sake. I am a new person and trying to trust people again. It's a slow, hard road and yes, I am in therapy. I'd still rather glue myself to Ceri and either stay at home, or go places with her. By myself rarely happens because I suck.

So, yessiree, I am back.