But I'm probably not going, not in 2014.
Hell, I'm probably not going to go again, FWA is fun and all, but most of it is just me wasting money on useless stuff, getting angry at the hotel and all the people that do stupid shit, trying to conversate with people awkwardly in some attempt to be social and part of the community.

Honestly, Big groups of people make me super nervous and anxious, I'm pretty good at hiding my panic attacks, usually I'll just sit there quietly for awhile, then try to leave. BUT everytime I go to these things, I'll meet people that seemingly like me, and will want me to stay at the party, game, group event, that is freaking me out and making me have a panic attack. Usually I don't want to seem like a dick, so I'll just stay and endure it, trying my best not to say something stupid, and just getting more and more angry at the situation.

Also, I never am that interested in anything happening there anyway, I just usually go to one or two things, stay in the board game room until I make a complete fool out of myself, have people continually offer me alcohol until I get tipsy and feel like shit, then go to artist alley and draw one or two things. the majority of the con is just me browsing around artist alley, trying to find people to draw fat versions of my character, or walking around aimlessly, seeing people that know me.

Usually when I go, people always tell me they want to hang out with me or take me somewhere, then immediately forget that I exist and go off, and sooooooo many people want me to try to find them and such. I never really get to hang out with any of them. then I get "OH GOD I ONLY GOT TO SEE YOU FOR LIKE A MINUTE, MAYBE NEXT YEAR."

I am not going through that again, like I said, I did have fun. But most of the people I see that seem like they would be cool to hang out with, I'm too socially awkward to actually meet, or if I do, they really don't want to be friends.

I don't think I will be going again, I may change my mind, usually I use this con as an excuse to get away from work for a couple of days and relax, but I never get to relax at a con, too much drama happening, too many people complaining about the small shit that "ruins" the con for them.

For all of those that I met at FWA and actually had fun with you, and it was nice to meet you.

Also I never really get online anymore, I work so freaking often that when I get an off day, I'm too freaking tired to even get online. I've stopped Rping entirely.