We're all going down.
12 years ago
General
So... how about that week with FA, hm? That was the most irksome week of my life...
Things of an interesting nature have happened in that meanwhile:
*Still haven't started at my supposed second job. :/ The company keeps cutting hours and so my shifts keep getting canceled... ugh.
*Alex was kinda back in my life? For a moment. Basically, I went to a mutual friend for help getting my stuff back. Friend was like, "Sorry can't help" but apparently talked to Alex anyway. So out-of-freaking-nowhere, I get a text from the ska kid. The shock value was such that I instantly fell to pieces... we talked up til he had to go to the library to study for finals. Then the next day he texted me again... first. That day I was still overwhelmed with his sudden return & the sudden resurgence of those negative feelings that I'd just finally convinced myself I didn't feel anymore... so I let some of the bitterness show. He actually admitted that he was a jackass and that what he did was fucked up (his words ) and apologised for it. I appreciated the gesture but he still has a lot to do to earn my forgiveness. Still, I made peace with him. Or thought I did. Before he poofed.
*Zac is kinda back in my life too? Oddly enough.
*Chris is also back in my life. :T Because, you know, every ex for the past 3 years has to remember I exist...
*Mailed out the US Christmas cards. There were slight issues with the international (abbrev. as IN from here on) ones. Unfortunately due to customs (I forgot about customs) I can't send the same itty bitty gifts in the IN cards as with the US ones, so sadly my IN friends won't have tiny presents. ;_; It's not from a lack of love for you guys... I tried.
*I have another stalker...
*I keep playing counselor for my coworker and giving her Tarot card readings. So far they've all been accurate.
*My denim vest is coming along swimmingly. c: It's starting to really look like /me/. I'm beginning to understand/appreciate why Alex's denim vest is so precious to him. I've poured so much time and effort into mine, have literally bled for it, that between the carefully-selected and carefully-placed patches, the studs, and the little accents I've added... it's becoming a reflection of myself. :3
*Finally got to see the results from my photo shoot with my wife. I may post some of them, in scraps at least...
*I'm basically going to die single, lolololol. I'm holding out for a specific someone but that doesn't seem to be happening...
*I've basically listened to just psychobilly & horrorpunk & watched lots of black and white horror movies. Because, you know... Christmas spirit. And stuff.
*Reconnected with a spookykid friend so now I have someone to be spooky with again.
*I found out my mom is convinced I was a seafarer of some sort in a previous life. There definitely seems to be evidence to point to that (instantly felt like I'd experienced it a thousand times before the first time I ever went to the beach even though I was six, my seemingly instinctive "sea legs" when I first went on a boat, my interest in/knack for knot tying and the fact I figured out a few simple knots/hitches without even knowing they were actual knots, my morbid fascination with/fear of drowning, the 80,000 drawings I did as a kid of marine life, lighthouses, and ships, sometimes sailing, othertimes wrecked...)
*Surprise, surprise: I'm sick. No energy at all...
Things of an interesting nature have happened in that meanwhile:
*Still haven't started at my supposed second job. :/ The company keeps cutting hours and so my shifts keep getting canceled... ugh.
*Alex was kinda back in my life? For a moment. Basically, I went to a mutual friend for help getting my stuff back. Friend was like, "Sorry can't help" but apparently talked to Alex anyway. So out-of-freaking-nowhere, I get a text from the ska kid. The shock value was such that I instantly fell to pieces... we talked up til he had to go to the library to study for finals. Then the next day he texted me again... first. That day I was still overwhelmed with his sudden return & the sudden resurgence of those negative feelings that I'd just finally convinced myself I didn't feel anymore... so I let some of the bitterness show. He actually admitted that he was a jackass and that what he did was fucked up (his words ) and apologised for it. I appreciated the gesture but he still has a lot to do to earn my forgiveness. Still, I made peace with him. Or thought I did. Before he poofed.
*Zac is kinda back in my life too? Oddly enough.
*Chris is also back in my life. :T Because, you know, every ex for the past 3 years has to remember I exist...
*Mailed out the US Christmas cards. There were slight issues with the international (abbrev. as IN from here on) ones. Unfortunately due to customs (I forgot about customs) I can't send the same itty bitty gifts in the IN cards as with the US ones, so sadly my IN friends won't have tiny presents. ;_; It's not from a lack of love for you guys... I tried.
*I have another stalker...
*I keep playing counselor for my coworker and giving her Tarot card readings. So far they've all been accurate.
*My denim vest is coming along swimmingly. c: It's starting to really look like /me/. I'm beginning to understand/appreciate why Alex's denim vest is so precious to him. I've poured so much time and effort into mine, have literally bled for it, that between the carefully-selected and carefully-placed patches, the studs, and the little accents I've added... it's becoming a reflection of myself. :3
*Finally got to see the results from my photo shoot with my wife. I may post some of them, in scraps at least...
*I'm basically going to die single, lolololol. I'm holding out for a specific someone but that doesn't seem to be happening...
*I've basically listened to just psychobilly & horrorpunk & watched lots of black and white horror movies. Because, you know... Christmas spirit. And stuff.
*Reconnected with a spookykid friend so now I have someone to be spooky with again.
*I found out my mom is convinced I was a seafarer of some sort in a previous life. There definitely seems to be evidence to point to that (instantly felt like I'd experienced it a thousand times before the first time I ever went to the beach even though I was six, my seemingly instinctive "sea legs" when I first went on a boat, my interest in/knack for knot tying and the fact I figured out a few simple knots/hitches without even knowing they were actual knots, my morbid fascination with/fear of drowning, the 80,000 drawings I did as a kid of marine life, lighthouses, and ships, sometimes sailing, othertimes wrecked...)
*Surprise, surprise: I'm sick. No energy at all...
FA+

*gives a cookie for every positive thing* *and mauls the stalker to give you a show for you cookie nomming moment*
In regards of all the negatives.. *nuzzles* I'm so sorry..
*licks cheek* ..small cookie crumbs for me? :<
Also, get well soon!