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And then suddenly... Poof! it's gone!
17 years ago
The Rantings of an Art Crazed Chow, Second verse, same as the first.
What's gone is my Christmas Spirit, I think. I was fine this morning when I went to work, put on that station in SF that plays the weird Christmas music, worked on my naughty Christmas comic a little, and all of of sudden, right in the middle of coloring, Bam! Feelings of being cold and alone.
Maybe because I tried to call my GF last night and she would not answer, maybe the exhaustion of Christmas shopping has caught up with me, or maybe it's the comic itself. Normally when I do porn and erotica, I feel nothing cause it's just art, but even my badly drawn art made me think a bit, and you all know how dangerous that can be.
Chances are I will be back to my usually cheerful self either later on today when I get off of work, or the next day. I'd had thoughts of buying a sixpack and kicking back, but it has been so long since I had a beer. Another hour before I get off of work, maybe a nap? I know that I still have some art to do but what if I get those feelings again? Maybe I should just try and shut those things out of the mind. Oh well, cheers folks and here's hoping your day is better than mine.
Maybe because I tried to call my GF last night and she would not answer, maybe the exhaustion of Christmas shopping has caught up with me, or maybe it's the comic itself. Normally when I do porn and erotica, I feel nothing cause it's just art, but even my badly drawn art made me think a bit, and you all know how dangerous that can be.
Chances are I will be back to my usually cheerful self either later on today when I get off of work, or the next day. I'd had thoughts of buying a sixpack and kicking back, but it has been so long since I had a beer. Another hour before I get off of work, maybe a nap? I know that I still have some art to do but what if I get those feelings again? Maybe I should just try and shut those things out of the mind. Oh well, cheers folks and here's hoping your day is better than mine.
But that's besides the point. You're not alone in this world. I'm sure your GF was busy or out doing something and couldn't be at the phone at the time.
Pouring up a glass of Eggnog and taking a nibble of Fruitcake, rolling up my sleeves and jumping into some art, but it's folks like you and your words that have gotten me going again. Thanks much hon. *Hug* Cheers.
d.m.f. (and Amy. <:3 )~~8~ )
d.m.f.
Oh by the way whats wrong with thoughts, nothing wrong with letting your mind wonder at things. Ive often thought about the power in images being mostly the thoughts that they can inspire. Not anything wrong with letting a few ones wonder in.
As for thoughts, it is very hard to explain. It borders on being in a relationship but never seem to get close or er... um.. intimate.
But I should not give up hope, perhaps it is part of getting old, the wanting but not having. I should get used to it, and I should not even be sad, after all, I may only have one GF, but being on FA, I have so many Girls who are Friends of mine. Cheers.
With the thought bit, well I think I understand what your saying. Your thoughts only seem to ever go so far in a sense. Its like for some reason they trail of at a certain point. I guess part of us might not want to take that step to go further, certainlyu not in concious thought. Sometimes dreams can alther that threshold and its never the same again once that lines been past.
Im just glad your back to your unusual self again as you say. Great to hear.
I'm not going to dwell upon my fate too much, it is better to be happy than gloomy and needy. Most of all, I gotta stay strong for my friends, which of course you should consider yourself one, maybe not a privileged thing to have, I do sometimes run with a very strange bunch. Cheers.