But the urge to abandon this account and move to a fresh one is feeling a lot stronger. Likely because I've been seeing a lot of people moving around accounts and trying to settle into their identity in the FA community. Part of me says I shouldn't care how others feel regarding something like that, because it's my identity and if it makes them uncomfortable, that is their problem. But I still fear driving people away, and I know I do that anyway for various reasons.

After reading a webcomic I've been following for a few years, I started to wonder if me changing my name makes people feel betrayed because they feel as if their relationship with Jerry or whoever has been lost. I wonder that because I feel the same in some ways, but I try to remind myself that Jerry still exists in my little worldthing and try to make sure others know that. But at the end of it all I've realized now more than ever that at the core I am Matt. This was probably inevitable, especially since I was 12-13 when I first created Jerry, but it doesn't mean it hurts any less.

I think this is moving onto TL/DR and somewhat emo topics, so I'll just say that I'm considering making another new account, because I'm tired of hiding from who I really am...