... it's nothing to be heeded. I just feel lonely, and not like the kind of lonely where no one is talking to me. The kind of lonely where it seems like everyone notices you, but doesn't actually interact with you... not to mention having nobody to turn to for romance...

Ever since the start of April, my life has been seeming especially painful as realization upon realization dawns on me... for one thing, I will probably never leave my home town, because my job is a dead end and they will not help me get anywhere. For two, I may not be going to AC 2014 this year because my job isn't giving me hours, in fact, ANY spending money I have is drastically reduced. For three, my own mind is sabotaging me, convincing itself that I have no purpose... it's only a matter of time now...