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Hey guys. Yeah... I'm still alive, sort of. School and work has been keeping me busy for the most part and, well, believe it or not, most of my free time has been spent drawing.

Unsurprisngly this may be... well, surprising to any watchers I still have left. But it's mostly because of my problem with finishing anything. I don't like the idea of just posting a bunch of unfinished sketches and half-done environments up on this page for you to stare at until god-knows-when. I've done too many of them to count, really, so much that I'd probably get in trouble if I were try and post them all to 'make up for lost time.

But really, there seems to be a lot of things that I'm struggling with as an artist. I mean... I know I'm getting better - at least that's what people I'm close to have been telling me - but I can't ever seem to focus on one thing through to the end. I usually start something, my energy peters out on it and I stop, and then I get a new idea and start something knew.

That or I might try to draw something for someone I know, but then it starts going off into an area where I feel that they're not going to like it, or I just have that 'they're not going to like it' doubt and I'm afraid to touch it again.

A lot of people have been telling me that I shouldn't be having those fears because of various reasons, probably ones that anyone reading this might come up with. But, I still keep having them. And there's no one around here physically to kick me in the ass for not posting anything or keep me working on a single thing, so... I feel like I'm stuck.

I don't really know what to say to all of you aside from I'm sorry. I feel like I've just let my watchers down for not having anything to show them. I even want to apologize to some of my friends and fellow artists and cool people out there because I feel that... everything has kept me from showing that I'm still around and still care and still think they're cool.

So... yeah. Kind of a depressed plea for forgiveness. And here's to hoping I can get out of this funk and press on.. and hopefully give you guys stuff to ogle.

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