I know I have never been very good at being social. But I often just feel that people are not attracted to me wether it be in a relationship or just as friends. I mean just a few weeks a girl asked me out to prom, after she asked a guy who is openly gay, for the only reason I can suspect as because everyone seems to think I am totally innocent and naive about anything sexual or that I am asexual. She also told me at prom that a classmate asked her if she wanted to "grind that" and another classmate said "Oh no, don't that! It would ruin the best part of Storr, he is so innocent!" I mean at school I am quite serious about my academics and I do realize I have a fairly stiff disposition, but much of the stiffness is just my shyness. Heck, much of the reason I am a furry is because I fell safe to be myself among fellow furs. I do have a group of friends, I just wish I could bring them closer to me. The big problem is I really worry about coming out in a small Bible-Belt town. I have told a grand total of two, yes two, people other than my parents. One of the two was that girl who asked me to prom, as I wanted her to know what she was getting into. I know most people of my generation are accepting, but I have seen how even accepting people change their opinions of others once they come out. The funny thing is I cannot come out as furry because nobody knows what the fandom is! Hopefully college will be more open minded. The school I am going to is considered liberal (for North Carolina), as well as the town around it, but even the most liberal places in the South are a lot different than San Francisco or Manhattan. Speaking of school, I am not even sure what I want to major in. I have been thinking about Biology, Public Policy, Political Science, Biochemistry or Economics. Back to relationships, my main purpose of this journal; one of my main worries is wether I will show enough affection to my partner. I will care love them like a puppy as I am a very devoted lover...or at least I believe I will be. I have never been in a real relationship, or any for that matter. I feel things will fall into place though, I have become much better at expressing my feeling to others in the past few years and hope to continue to improve my social skills. I just hope I will become good enough at people skills before the prime of my life passes me by.