Realizations and the hard choice that comes with them.
11 years ago
My supervisor from work is done. He just told the regional manager that he is giving them two months to find train and replace him. He was told this and I quote, "I am sorry that it had to be like this. Unfortunately there are no day positions available, but he would keep his eye out." My supervisor stated that he came to the full understanding that no one cares. At that time it just hit me. I finally understood exactly why my plant manager acted like he does, said things the way he does, and gets away with almost everything entirely.
A thing the plant manager repeats over and over never faltering on a word, "Nobody likes to clean." The high turnover rates of the janitorial industry has, plus getting rid of problem employees or letting management do what they want. All the problems go away because "Nobody likes to clean." This entails the reason that I hate humanity or most of the reason that is.
Now this brings me into an interesting situation. I can do what I usually do. Not letting this complete garbage anywhere near me. On the other paw, I can change myself for a small amount of time. To get me to a life aspiration a lot faster, as well as with more ease and comforts along the way. Also the other paw brings me the chance to move into other opportunities once the time comes for me to put my plans into their second stage.
This tears me up inside. I am who I am nothing more, nothing less. I change for no one, that is just who I am. If I change and do what ever I have to. I can as stated above, more comfort and everything moving along faster. I still don't know what I am going to do. Either way I get to my end goal. Faster would be very nice, but at the risk of compromising the core of who I am. Of course as it goes though everything happens for a reason and only time will tell.
A thing the plant manager repeats over and over never faltering on a word, "Nobody likes to clean." The high turnover rates of the janitorial industry has, plus getting rid of problem employees or letting management do what they want. All the problems go away because "Nobody likes to clean." This entails the reason that I hate humanity or most of the reason that is.
Now this brings me into an interesting situation. I can do what I usually do. Not letting this complete garbage anywhere near me. On the other paw, I can change myself for a small amount of time. To get me to a life aspiration a lot faster, as well as with more ease and comforts along the way. Also the other paw brings me the chance to move into other opportunities once the time comes for me to put my plans into their second stage.
This tears me up inside. I am who I am nothing more, nothing less. I change for no one, that is just who I am. If I change and do what ever I have to. I can as stated above, more comfort and everything moving along faster. I still don't know what I am going to do. Either way I get to my end goal. Faster would be very nice, but at the risk of compromising the core of who I am. Of course as it goes though everything happens for a reason and only time will tell.

dragonofdarkness13
~dragonofdarkness13
you do what you think you need to do

Aadyn
~aadyn
OP
That is the plan. It is going to take me a little while to sort it out in my head but I have all the time in the world. Well at least 8-9 months to get this all sorted out at the very latest.