I find myself single, again, after 2 years. It's always weird to be in this position. I have always been in long term relationships and when they end it's very much like waking up from a long dream. I'm a little disoriented and I'm not sure where I am or what I should be doing, really. And it takes so much out of me. This one was worse because we started out as BFFs and I really felt like we connected on a deeper level. Plus, we were actually married.
I'm not saying that we're not both better people from the split (it definitely was time to end that relationship because it was getting really destructive) but it's still very difficult to know where to start again.
I've been both extremely relieved and extremely sad.